Tuesday, December 30, 2008

sleeping like a baby

Christmas morning

all done for the night

oh to be able to sleep like this!

Monday, December 29, 2008

the sickies

So i blogged about the fact that I spent Christmas night at the er. They were very nice to me and gave me drugs that made me forget that i was in pain. Well last night baby S Spiked a fever and had yet another fibril sesiuror and we rushed him to the er. He is fine just panicked the wife and I. Then to top it all off K got up this morning complaining with chest pains and shortness of breath. this is the same thing that happened at her dads last week and he and the new wife told her it was a chest cold to suck it up. well off to the Dr we go. K has a history of atrial flutters and I was not willing to take a chance that it was something more than that. well our pediatrician is on vacation so we had to see the senior partner in the practice. this man is old and crabby, almost as soon as he came in the office the wife's new cell (which she hasn't mastered) started beeping and the man scolded my wife and told her to turn it off. No big deal we just kind of exchanged a look. Then get this in the middle of examining my daughter HIS cell rings.... he stopped and took a personal call in the middle of my daughters exam! EXCUSE ME OH NO YOU DIDN'T. I will deal with this just as soon as our Dr is back and we don't need this man. Anyway that wasn't even the worst part. K mentioned that she runs and the man had the nerve to tell her that her boobs were to big for her to run. WTF this man needs to retire or something. He then ordered a chest xray , EKG, and blood work to see what the problem is. So now we are home in front of the fire relaxing dinner is in the oven and soon we will eat and relax some more. we are keeping our fingers crossed that E stays healthy.

Thursday, December 25, 2008


So Christmas has come and gone sort of we are sitting here watching emit otters jug band Christmas. I was shocked to hear that the wife had never seen it, so we had to watch it. The kids are all laying on the floor with the dogs in front of the fire place, it's just a fun lazy night. We had a wonderful morning with all the grandparents and breakfast was good, at least they tell me it was. I did have to take a quick trip to urgent care, I have a bladder-urinary tract infection that got worse thru out the day that made me cuss so the wife took me to get some meds and pain pills. So now I am sitting here enjoying the drug induced haze and the warmth of my family. I hope you all have had a wonderful special day.

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Happy Holidays!

So this is the crazy time of the year for me with work and all but the crazyness is finally over. My stores all have their pictures in and i only have to work for 2 hours tomorrow! I am off for the next 2 days! Since I moved into my home almost 10 years ago I have always had Christmas morning breakfast at my house. So this year we will be hosting my parents, The wifes parents,my bff T, and my ex inlaws. With our 3 kids that makes a total of 12. It is one tradition that I will always treasure. It is so nice to have all the people that my children care the most for around them for this holiday. It is so much fun to have them all here telling stories and playing with the kids. I hope that you all have a happy holiday what ever that holiday may be.

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Check it out

Originally uploaded by picturelady1018
Check it out you can see this picture and more of my work on
www.queereyecandy.com . I am honored to have the great Sinclair Sexsmith posting my pics. There are also pics of my smoking hot wife in the august archives. Not to mention lots of other great pictures.

Thursday, December 11, 2008

My rainbow

I swiped this from a couple other bloggers (GG & Jess) but it fits.
Your rainbow is shaded violet.


What is says about you: You are a creative person. You appreciate beauty and craftsmanship. You are patient and will keep trying to understand something until you've mastered it.

Find the colors of your rainbow at spacefem.com.

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

My wife

kristy's shoot 138
Originally uploaded by picturelady1018
So late in the summer I took some pics of the wife, never got them over here. No time like the present. Isn't she smokin hot!!! more pics on my flickr

Sunday, November 30, 2008

Life choices

So i am going to start this post my saying that i know that we are all human and that we all make mistakes. The point is that I made a huge mistake,well i have been making a huge mistake. i chose to have an affair, now I say i chose to but i don't think that it was a conscious decision but i know that I allowed it to happen. This affair started as a simple flirting situation, that grew into a fling that grew into the biggest mistake of my life. I met this person on threw my job and because she and I worked fairly close to one another it was easy to flirt and she was such a talker that she soon ha me feeling all special and kind of like a kid again. Now I guess I should say that she also had a girlfriend that also works in the same building. i think at first this added tot the fun for me it was kind of like a big secret would we get caught flirting would she notice how her girl went out of her way t fin a reason to even walk into my department. Well about a week before my birthday I mentioned that i wanted to go out for my birthday. she jumped all over this and we decided to go out on a double date. here is where all the trouble really started. We exchanged phone numbers and then all hell broke loose. we started to text and we flirted more threw texts we texted at least 50 times a day and then we started to talk on the phone. all this in a weeks time. Well we decided to meet outside of work and one thing led to another and next thing i know I'm kissing her in my car. We all still went out that weekend and i was fun till she got way to drunk and her girl got mad. that night I spent 2 hours holding her head while she puked he guts out. My wife talked to the girlfriend for that whole time and we found out that they had major problems. Long story shorter we ended up befriending them to the point that my wife invited my new fling to move in with us....AND SHE DID. this was a move that both made the affair easier and my life much more complicated. Needless to say i got caught. My wife was devastated and hurt and for awhile I thought she was going to take baby S and leave me . She didn't THANK THE GODDESS.
but now to the point of this blog..... I let a hormonal Surge almost ruin my life, the attention that this girl showed me was in no way worth losing my wife and family over. I have since found out that this girl played me, she promised me the moon and there is no way that she could have delivered it. Not that I wanted her to I never had any intentions of leaving my wife, this was just a flirtatious adventure that got way out of hand. I think part of it was that she is 8 years younger than I am and her girlfriend is only 22 and she still wanted me. I was in heaven with the special treatment she gave me opening doors, putting on my jacket, little gifts and all that. all the things my wife use to do before babyS came along and she went back to school. I missed it, i wont lie. BUT i know that this is not worth loosing the love of my life over. She has agreed to stay and says she forgives me. I know that i have a lot of work to do to prove to her that I can be trusted and that she should even want to stay amazes me. She tells me that she knows i am only human and that we all make mistakes. i thank the Goddess that she didn't leave me and I know that I will do All that is in my power to make this up to her. If your still reading this wish me luck!! Iguess the moral of this little tale is never forget what you have at home is what you really want and need or it wouldn't be what was at home in the first place.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Tuesday, November 4, 2008


I am soo happy right now I can't even think. I just had to post WE DID IT WE DID IT WE DID IT! It's time for change!!!
Thank you Obama!!

Monday, November 3, 2008


I have spent today on the phone trying to convince my friends and family to vote for Barack Obama. I was completely and totally overwhelmed by the support that I found for this man. I live in a red state that I am proud to say I have tried my hardest to turn blue tomorrow. I can only hope that all those i have spoken with today have the courage to stand and vote for change and hope tomorrow. Get up early and vote. Tomorrow night we party!!!
We Have a Lot of Work to Do

Thursday, October 30, 2008

Trick or Treat.

So we went trick or treating with the kids tonight... I would love to show you pictures of our little ones and our not so little ones but can you believe that I did not take one single picture. This may have been due to the fact that I was on a flat ass run home from work just to make it to trick or treat. It may also be due to the fact that I told my lovely wife to just grab me a pair of jeans and some flat shoes( I was not trick or treating in 4inch stilettos). I neglected to tell her to grab the camera and with the 3 kids and K's boyfriend in tow she just let it slip her mind. So any who we took the kids and walked around town for the necessary hour and the boys got way to much candy. K did not trick or treat this year she just took her arm candy with us. I can't complain this boy is very nice, polite and one of the top things on his list of hates is gay bashers. what's not to like right. All in all it was a good night and baby S had a ball saying trick or treat. now if I can just get the boys off the ceiling it's almost time for bed.
Happy Halloween

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

one more reason to VOTE

I saw this on another blog and it got me to thinking even more about Nov 4th . I know that this election is the biggest election of my life time and I am so proud to be part of it. Get out and vote!

Sunday, October 19, 2008

Happy Birthday to me

So yesterday was my birthday. The wife and I had made plans to go out with another couple. It was the first time we had gone out with them and we had a blast. We went to see a drag show and my favorite queen was there. ( she told the wife and I that we were just adorable). The one lady we were with use to work at the club and she made sure that everone knew it was my birthday. We had a blast and for once I didn't mind my birthday. Thanks to the wife and the girls for a great night.

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

one more bump for baby S

So last night the wife and I played in the yard with the kids for awhile. I love to spend time out side in the leaves and the crisp autumn air. We played freeze tag, and we threw sticks for our weimeraner mac. He isn't the brightest bulb but he is getting better at the whole bringing the stick back part. anyway... We made it threw the outside time and came in to get the kids ready for bed. Baths are over so it's movie time. Baby S wanted to watch the backyardigans. Now I don't mind this show but after last night I think I am going to ban TV from my home. He was dancing to the backyardigans and lost his footing and smacked his face into the entertainment stand.
Right between his eyes. His nose didn't bleed but he did swell and he did cry ohh did he cry. It was one of those moments that we have gotten way to use to with this little guy. We decided not to take him to the ER only because he didn't bleed and once he calmed down he got up and played a bit. He now looks like a clingon from star treck. I don't know what to do with him but I am thinking that a bubble wrap suit would make for a great investment. we have been to the ER 3 time with this little guy in his short time and I am so waiting for social services to knock on our door. He went to daycare today and they told me when I picked him up that they didn't write an incident report up, because they thought that it was a legitimate injury. (Thank The Goddess) I know that this boy has given me more gray hair than than the other 2 kids combined. I just hope that we are able to get threw the next year with no more major bumps or cuts. Wish me luck.

Monday, October 6, 2008

Fall is here.

Hello fall, This is my most favorite time of the year. I love the way the air gets crisp and it's not quite cold enough to be uncomfortable. I love the color changes and the fall smells. I love to spend time outside with my kids raking and playing in the leaves. this is the first time that Baby S is excited about the leaves. it is fun to watch him play and chase the leaves. It is fun to watch E drop the leaves on one side of our bridge and run to the other side and see which one won the race. I love this time of year watching K run because as the temperature drops her time gets better and better. I love watching her get in her stride and really enjoy the run itself. I also think that this is the time of year that gets my heart going it is more of a time of year that I start to think about what I can acomplish for the rest of the year. I look forward to the first night of cuddling with my honey in front of the fire. I Know that the first snow is going to be along way to soon and with it the long winter but for now I am just enjoying all the wonders of fall. I hope you all find ways to enjoy fall yourselves.

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

Have you seen the polls.

I just checked in on the presidential polls, and woooo hoooo!!!! The Yahoo presidential poll has Obama listed as the projected winner 330 to 175. I know that this is just an early poll, but I am so very excited. Ok enough politics back to your regularly unscheduled blog.

Friday, September 26, 2008

The debates

So we just finished watching the first debate. I am even more behind Obama, I think this man has our best interests at heart. I am not going to turn this blog into a political blog but I just know in my heart of hearts that this man is the best chance I have of getting to marry my wife and this is my biggest issue. I know that all people are sceptical of politicians and rightly so but come on if Obama can achieve 2% of what he says he wants to do is that not better than what we have now. I watched the debate and just felt that Mccain was just evil, the
smirks the condecending attitude the arogance. so I will stop now. just one last thing.


Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Guess I should Check in more often.

So I have not been on the ball lately. I was out of town for a week long business trip and then it's just been crazy at work, so I have neglected my blog. I got a nice email from someone who reads the blog who let me know I have received hate mail. I can't believe that my little blog about nothing received hate mail. does this mean that I have some how made it in the blog world ?? I think not I think that this person is probably just a small minded man who has been turned down by one to many lesbians so now he stalks the Internet looking to hurt or attempt to hurt women. I just want him to know that he has not hurt me he will not silence me and no I will not repent for loving my wife and the wonderful family that we have. All he has done is make it so I now have to approve the comments on this blog. Ouch oh ouch. I would remind this small minded person that we do live in a society that is still free no thanks to W but it is still a free country and I am able to love whom I chose and I believe that the goddess created me just the way I am. So put that in your pipe and smoke it patrick, and by the way you are a nut case.

Thursday, September 18, 2008

The perfect revenge

I have just found the most awesome way to get back at Sara palin. I read several blogs and none that are political all the time. It just amazes me that this woman has everyday people so mad that they blog about her, but I digress... I was visiting grumpygranny and she had the best idea and most fitting way to get back at Sara Palin. just go to http://www.plannedparenthood.org
and make a donation in her name. Planned parenthood will then let her know that a donation was made in her name. This will let her know that the women of America want reproductive fredom and family planning. things that I'm sure her own daughter would love to have had access to. Any who this is a great way to get the point across and a great charity to help out. It's realy a win win for all involved.

Thursday, September 4, 2008


so the wife decided that we needed to watch the Repblicans again tonight. It was a nauseating hour and a half. I watched mrs mcSAME read a dead pan speach verbatim and the wife wanted to know if we could request the cat in the hat next. I was not at all impressed. Then we sat threw mcSAME and though he infruiated me at time by running Barack into the ground. the man really didn't have much to say. I along with most Americans feel that what he suffered in Vietnam was a horrible thing that should never have happened to any one but when that is the best part of your speech what does that say about your platform. I know now that I will be out knocking on doors and registering people to vote even more now that I know just what a waste of time this man is. I will do my part to get Barack Obama elected. Ohio is a battleground state and I will do my part to help the democrates win not only my state but the white house.
GO Obama Go !!!!!

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

I didn't realise we were electing a homecomming queen!

so I realise that watching the other parties convention was going to be a challenge. It wasn't one that I could stomach without a bloody Mary or 3. I watched tonight just to see what this woman was about. I was so relieved to find out just what a joke she is. I thought that maybe she would have some good points but sadly I was mistaken. She will never be a Hillary substitute, she will never be more than the republican joke. I actually feel sorry for her. As she spoke you could tell she believes in what she is saying. All I could think of was why is her 5 month old child being passed around when it should be in bed. Then she pimped out her special needs child as one more reason to vote for her. I just feel bad for her how can you pimp your kids like that. I know that all families have challenges I mean come on I have a 15 yr old. I know that at any time I could be a grandma, not that i want to be anytime soon. I would however like to know that my daughter still had options that she alone is capable of making. I know I am ranting and it's the bloody Marys talking but I hope and pray that this woman is no where near the white house any time soon.

Thursday, August 28, 2008

What does a lesbian look like???

Lately i have been reading a lot of posts on gender expression. Although most of these posts have been from a butch prospective it has got me thinking. i am i guess what would be called a femme, a lipstick lesbian, a girly girl. I love my makeup and heels. I love to get dressed up in girly clothes. I love to smell good and I like the way that the ritual of makeup makes me feel. I do also enjoy dressing down. I love to snuggle on the couch with the wife in a comfy pair of sweats. I don't always get all dolled up, but know how to when I want to. Here is my for lack of a better word problem. I have been told over and over again that I dont look like a lesbian. Now I want to know what does a lesbian look like. I know that some women just present as such, my wife is one of those. If she were in a room of women and someone who didn't know her called her name and she stood up the first thought is ohh a lesbian. I on the other hand have to work harder to convince people that I am a lesbian. I have only been out for about 5 years and at first I was comfortable with the fact that people don't always know that I was gay, however now I have moved on to wanting to be known as a lesbian, I want people to look at me and think lesbian. I wear a rainbow beaded bracelet most of the time and I wear my wedding ring on my right hand. I know these are symbols that our community will recognise and I get the lesbian nod every once in awhile, but mostly when the wife is with me so I don't know if it's her or me they are nodding at.
I know that most of this problem is in my head and that my identity as a lesbian is not a problem. I love women and though I was married for 10+ years to a man I always knew that I liked girls. My problem is how do I get people to acknowledge that I am a lesbian on an everyday basis. I don't mind explaining myself I just hate it when I have to convince someone that not all lesbians wear flannel and have a mullet. I have tried to dress more butch, it just doesn't work for me. My wife laughs at my attempts, not because I look funny but because no matter what I can not look butch. In a baseball hat, sweat shirt,jeans and timberland boots I still scream girly, not that I mind screaming girly but come on even dressed like this I have still had to convince people that I am gay. I guess that I just want to be a visible lesbian without having to be all in your face about it. I guess that deep down I know that my identity as a lesbian is going to have to be something that I learn to except and hope that people just treat me well as who I am. I guess this will have to do until I get the courage to get the big LESBIAN tattooed on my forehead.LOL

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

My baby is "eye candy"

A few weeks ago I did a photo shoot of the wife. I had been asking her to pose for me for awhile, and she kept telling me she would so finally on a nice Sunday we took the kids to the park and I got some great shots of her to add to my portfolio. I also submitted a few to one of my favorite bloggers and now my baby is eye candy over on sinclair sexsmith's blog. check her out.

Thursday, August 21, 2008

My equality Ohio video

So about a year ago I did a project with equality Ohio and it has just now hit Youtube. I decided to put it here. This issue is so near and dear to my heart and my family. I hope that you enjoy it.

Monday, August 18, 2008

where did summer go?

So my oldest 2 children go back to school on Wednesday. I can not believe that the summer is over. It seems that we just went to the last day of school picnic with E. I guess it has been 3 months I just want to know why the 3 months of summer go so fast and the 3 months of true winter seem to crawl by. That is someones idea of a joke I'm sure.

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

lazy days

So this week I have been on vacation. It has been wonderful to not be a slave to the alarm clock. We have done lots of fun things with the kids and taken lots of naps. We took the kids to the drive-in to see space chimps and the new mummy movie. both are worth watching and we had a good night for the movie, not to cold and babyS passed out early:). we also took the kids and went to the zoo. It was nice because it threatened to rain and not many people braved the day, so it wasn't crowded at all. we did the entire zoo in about 6 hours and saw everything the kids wanted to see. the week did start off kind of crazy baby S got a little to into the wiggles and busted his eye open on the entertainment stand so the wife and I got to spend 3 hours in the er getting his eye glued back together. He is fine just looks like he was beaten up pretty good. All in all it has been a great week and I am not looking forward to going back to work next week.

Thursday, July 31, 2008

wedding meme

About My Wedding


Take this survey

1. What month & year were you married?

2. How did he ask you?
No but she did

3. Where did you honeymoon?

4. Can you still fit in your dress?

5. What was the worst gift you got?

6. What flavor was your wedding cake?
it was chocolate and vanilla

7. Were you a bridezilla?

8. Whats one thing you would change about your wedding?

9. Do you still look at your wedding pics?
almost everyday

10. What colors did you use?

11. Where did you tie the knot?
Burroak state park

12. Whats one funny thing that happened that day?
I walked out on kristy( I came right back)

14. Did you cry?

15. Did you give any wedding favors away?

16. Who caught the flowers and garter?

17. Who was your officiant or minister?
Jeni meadows

18. How much was your wedding dress, undergarments and all?
under 100

19. Was there dancing?

20. Where was the reception?

21. Would go back and do it over again?
hell yeah

22. How long did you have to plan your wedding?
6 months

23. What kind of car were you in when you drove away?
ford taurus

24. How many in your wedding party?

25. Did you do anything different in your wedding or reception?
the dog was there

26. Did you save the top layer of your cake for your 1 year anniversary?

27. If so, did you eat it? Was it still good?
yesand yes

28. What was the grand total spent on your wedding?
not sure

29. Who traveled the farthest to attend your wedding?
kristy's family

30. Do you regret having anyone in your bridal party?


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Tuesday, July 29, 2008

summer daze

So summer is here and almost gone. The kids start school in less than a month and K has started training for another year of cross country. I am so amazed with this child. It seems like we have to beat her in to running at first then she just takes off. She was told by her coach that she needed to run at lest 3 miles a day. This didn't seem like to much to ask, so we have been going to run/walk with her in the evenings. e rides his bike, the wife runs or jogs and I walk with baby S. It is a good time. Of course this is every other week because K&E go to their dads for a week at a time in the summer. The other night I told her she was to run 6 miles and she looked at me with that look that teenage girls do so well and said no problem. she did it too not arguing no back talk just ran her ass off. after running 5 and a half miles I told her I wanted to see what she had left and the little smart ass ran a 4 min half mile. I was stunned. she was tired after but she ran her ass off. I was proud of her and hope that maybe this year she will find a little bit of competitive side that requires her to push herself. I guess it's good that she will run for the joy of running but I would so love to see her better her times and beat this one girl in particular. Oh well I guess at least she does something.

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

family pics

So today we went and had the dreaded family pics taken. Now I know that you would think that with this being my business this would be a piece of cake.... Not the case. If you ever heard me taking my own children's pics you would never let me near yours. I hate to take their pics. Its not that they are bad kids or anything like that it's just that they don't listen to me. So today I walked in and looked at my photographer and told her it was her game I had nothing in it, to do with us what she would. It was as great shoot. the kids smiled for her and we got some great pics. We even got to have an extra family member. (baby S would not put down his Penguin)
The wife and I got a pic of just he two of us it seems like forever since that has happened. So after a stress free photo shoot we are going to reward the kids and go to a drive-in movie tonight. Yeah!!!

Monday, July 14, 2008

Katie Reider you will be missed.

I received the very sad new today that a wonderful person has passed on. Katie Reider was a performer from here in Ohio. She and her partner had moved to NY with their 2 children so Katie could pursue her music. She was struck with a very rare cancer and fought the good fight until early this morning when she was called home. Her voice will live on and the lives she touched will forever be changed.
Thanks Katie now rock the angels.


Wednesday, July 9, 2008

life update

So after 2 days of random power outages we have had power this evening and i thought I would take the time to update a bit. We had a great time at pride, I wish that more days could be like that. We went to The in laws for the 4Th it was a good day. We also saw the fireworks on the 5Th with my mom and my bob. It was Baby S's 2ND birthday and I can not believe that my baby is 2, I am just not sure where the time has gone. The two older kids came home on Sunday and we have had a great week so far. On Monday we went to the lake and then came home to no power, the official story is that there was animal contact. Now I don't know about you but it must have been one hell of an animal to knock put power for almost 15 hours. We made the best of it and built a camp fire and roasted hot dogs for dinner. the kids had fun. we then played hide and seek till it was time for bed. No sooner did the wife and I get all snugly in bed that the power came back on. we then had to run around and turn off all the lights that we had on. i got up and went to work early on Tues and when I came home the wife was in the garage she let me know that we once again had no power. this time it was a tree down on a major line,blah blah blah. So K had started a roast earlier that was done so last night dinner consisted of roast beef and bread and butter. I know what healthy eaters we are. So today i went to work only to call every hour to be told that yes we still have power. It has been a good day and over all a good start to summer.

In other news the wife has quit her job. She was up fora promotion at work and the hiring manager is known to be a homophobic prick. She didn't even get a real interview she was told that 3 other Men were much more qualified. This is bull ans she called them on it. Then the trouble started. She had never been so much as late to work and she has gotten excellent on all her evals. but they started to nit pick and I told her not to put up with it. I make enough for us to get by and it is so not worth her aggravation to deal with that. The exciting part is she is now going to finally use her GI bill and go back to school!!!!!!! She has wanted to for a long time but lacked the confidence to do so. This is just the push she needed. I am so excited for her. She is going to be a Radiology Technician. I can't wait to see her in scrubs ;)
well I have rambled on for far to long so more later.

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

sister in need of help!

I very rarely try and get anyone to donate their hard earned money to a cause that is not dear to them, but this lady needs our help and it's just a buck. I am enclosing a link. If you think it's worth it she could really use the help.


Monday, June 23, 2008


So our local pride is this weekend, the wife and i are looking forward to a child free crazy weekend. I so need this weekend away. I have had a crazy couple of months at work and if one of the people that work for me try and screw this up I will lose my mind. It just seems a shame that I look forward to this one weekend soo much. I am excited this year that we are not taking the kids! Big girls weekend out!!! SO if any of you are in Columbus Ohio this weekend and see us say hello. Pics to follow the weekend I'm sure.

Friday, June 13, 2008

That is so gay!

So today at work it happened i had finally had all i could take I was at one of my stores that I don't get to very much. This store as one of only 2 men that work for me. we had had a good day so far no technical probs with the new system that was installed. I was working with a corporate installer who was a bit of a pig but again I don't deal with alot men so sometimes I forget they are just wired differently. But anyway this gentleman that works for me was having some sort of issue with our system and didn't get how a certain feature worked when out of no where he yells " that is so gay". The girl that was working with us slapped this arm and just looked at him. I calmly turned to him and told him I would not tolerate that again. it created a hostile work place I didn't care for and that if I ever heard that comment from him again I would ask him to clock out and leave my store. He just stared at me. Apparently he did not understand that I am gay.. I don't see how but I told him that I do not tolerate any type of hate speech and would do the same if he use other not nice words. His statement was I would never use the N word or anything. Which brings me to my point...

Why is it OK to single out the "gays" We are people too and just standing up to this ignorant man made me feel better. I was talking to the young lady that was there with us as we drove home and I told her I thought that maybe I just have a lower tolerance for men since I don't deal with them that often. she just laughed. I know that we as a community have a long road ahead of us but I have decided that at least with the 50 or so people that work for me I will have a gay friendly zone or they can find other employment. I have to work to feed the family and I will do it in an environment that is at least tolerant even if they don't like it!

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

First to Marry, After Five Decades

I found this on mombian and thought it was nice and very much deserved, so I thought i would share

First to Marry, After Five Decades

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My fellow bloggers I need your help. E had a sleepover with a couple of the boys from his baseball team. Now we have been to all of E's games together and all of the boys know that E has 2 moms. well one of the little boys last night asked me if I was e's step mom. I told him no I was e's mom . He looked at me funny and said that the other lady told him she was e's mom. I told him that she was e' s step mom. he still looked all puzzled and wanted to know where the dad was. I told him we had didn't have a dad at our house. he told me he was confused and I froze. I did not know what to say to this little boy, I was sooo at a loss for what to say. The wife and I have been together since e started school and we have never had this problem, I was soo soo soo afraid of this little boy. I have never been more at a loss of words about my family. I didn't want to make this boy not like us and not want ot come back and stay. He seemed to be ok with all of this and went and played. He asked this morning where the other mom was and I told him she was in bed. He was good with this and played. I guess that my major concern was that I wasn't sure what their family thought about gay people, what words that they use to descried other peoples lifestyles. I know that they are fine with the wife and I. I know that they are good people, these boys are the sons of the coach I blogged about the other day. I just didn't want to make anyone uncomfortable with anything.

I guess this is the major issue why should I feel wrong about my family, why should I have to wonder what others have told kids. It just seems odd to me that I would not know how to talk to an 8 yr old, when I have one of my own.

So any thoughts on how to handle this would be so helpful and appreciated.

Monday, June 2, 2008

My family

So Today I will blog for my family, my family that will aparently ruin all of society. I have a lovely wife and 3 beautiful children. the oldest 2 came with me into this relationship from a previous marriage( this one legal because there was a penis involved... notice i did not use the D word) anywho, our oldest child is 14 and wonderful. the middle child is a sassy 8. Then we have our baby who sadly will turn 2 in July. we have been illegaly married for 2 years. I have been with my partner for almost 5 years and I can tell you that I know that this is the pwrson that I am suspose to grow old with. this is the person I am suspose to drink coffe with and share the paper with. this is the person taht is suspose to take care of me snd that i am to take care of. this is my other half, my reason for being, my heart and soul. this is my love. It seems so crazy to have to justifiy my relationship and therefore my family. in my house we cook we clean(not a much as we should) we make school lunches we do homework we go to sports practices and events. we have fights, we laugh we cry we snuggle, cuddle and just veg in front of the couch. we are the all american family no matter who you ask we are the typical family down the street. we do not hit in our house we do not hate we do not celebrate fathers day, we still pay our taxes and vote all the things that the other families do but we are not recognized and we are definayly discriminated against. this sucks and I do not like it but i would not trade my family for an easier life. i hope if my kids take anywhing away from my life they understand that easy is not always best and to never settle for what someone tells you is good enough.
I know this had rambled and it makes no sence but there is my blog for LGBT families.

Saturday, May 31, 2008

My little man... and his coach

I have written about all the kids before and I love them each for their own unique ways, but my middle child is such an old soul. E is the one that wears his heart on his sleeve, he feels so much more than I think I do sometimes. He has a heart the size of the moon and he is sooo loving. He is also 8 and he thinks he is big enough to be his own boss, and on some things we have let him be. He asked to play baseball this year, and we signed him up before we asked his father. he loves it, the games the practice the teammates. He is having a ball. Well we had a game tonight and he is the lead off batter he got a hit tonight and made it to base. The next little kid hit a pop up and was out. now my little boy who has never played before ran when he heard the coach tell him to. Long story short everyone was yelling for him to come back to the base and he didn't make it before they tagged him out. He ran to the dugout and burst into tears. He was so afraid that the kids would be mad at him. Now I should say my sons coach is a few years younger than I am and I sort of remember him from school. This is a very nice man with the patience of a saint. the little boy who hit the pop up was his son. As I was walking over to comfort my son this little boy put his arms around my son and told him that it was fine he got out too and E had a great hit. I almost lost it standing right there. I turned to look and the wife and she had tears in her eyes also. She couldn't hear what was said but she saw the hug. I was so impressed by this. I wish more men could set examples like this
obviously this boy has seen compassion and love at home from his father and stepmother. I should also add that one of the assistant coaches is the ex husband of the coaches wife. These people are great and I am soo glad that we took a chance and signed E up for baseball. He has grown so much this spring. he is a great great kid. We did lose the game tonight but my son learned a great lesson, and I think that is what matters most.

Thursday, May 22, 2008


I should start this by saying that I am not much into video games.My wife however is a tech geek, we have all the little gadgets,the ipods,then the ipod touch,( I have no idea how to work all of it) we have a navigation system for the car, I still like maps and I know where the local grocery store is. So she has been after me for sometime to get a wii, I have fought this and fought this until she finally told me I Am buying wii tonight. She brought this thing home and I think we have played it more than the kids. I love the bowling and the tennis, and the boxing is a great workout. I was so shocked that I have found my self playing it as much as I have. I did tell her that I was sorry for the delay. I even made her stand in line this past Tuesday for wii fit. It too is a blast! I hate to admit it but I think i could give up workout vids for this! I guess anything that makes get my big butt moving is a good thing! so i guess that I have become a little bit of a wii junkie. Still not sure if this good or bad, time and hopefully my smaller waistline will tell

Saturday, May 17, 2008

women erg!

I should start this by saying that I am not a hater. I am however sick of women, or more specificaly certain women that work for me. I am a market manager for a major protrait company and we employ 98% women. Now I love women individualy but this group of women is so getting on my nerve. I know that we all have things that come up and that we have children that get sick, have sports or other things that they are involved in, but come on this is your job! Grow up or quit, I know this sounds harsh and all but I too have a familty that is very active I also have a wife that works nights. I work about 60 hours a week and am soooo sick of these ladies thinking that what ever they want is going to happen, I honor what requests that I can but somewhere along they way these people have forgotten that a request is just a request and that it is never a guarantee that they will get it off. I just got off the phone with a young lady who would like me to find someone to work for her tomorrow so she can go to a tupperware party WTF !! It is 11:30 on saturday night who calls their boss at 11:30 f0r a damn tupperware party. I use to think that this was a great job but when did i start babysitting? I would have never called off like this or asked for 3 of 4 weekends off. I am sorry abotu the rant but I needed to vent, thanks for listining.

Sunday, May 11, 2008

Happy Mothers Day!

So today is the day that we have set aside to honor mothers. I think this is a wonderful day and a great tradition. This year as in past years we started the weekend with a Mother daughter banquet at church. Now I should say that K is always at her sperm's house on Friday evenings. and it always seems that I am working at one of my furthest locations that day. Well mother called and asked if we would be attending and I told her that K was at the sperms house and that I would be working but the wife is off and would love to go. Mom said ok tell her she needs to bring a dish. Now the wife and I don' go to church nearly as much as we would like or need to be and the reason is not just because of the people my work schedule is crazy and the wife works on sat and sun. That and the fact that we can tell we scare the nice christian people it just doesn't seem worth it. But anyway, I left for work and told the wife that I would make it just not for the dinner part. She met mom and got there early. I showed up about 4 mins late and brought mom a rose as a way of apologizing. I sat down and it appears that no one missed me. I have been replaced by the wife. I guess this is good and I should thank my lucky stars that my family is so willing to except the wife as family.
fast forward 2 days and I got breakfast in bed this morning and a bunch of roses. Then the power went out. nice thing about power outages we have no land line phones only cordless so no phone calls from work, bad thing about power outages is we have a well and with no power comes no water. I decided that while the wife slept I would take the kids and the dogs and go to the dog park. good idea but the weather did not think so. It rained cats and dogs and thunder and lighting. so we came home and lit candles and waited for the lights to come back on. I am about to make dinner for the wife and then my family will be having a Wii bowling tournament.. Just wanted to wish you all a very Happy Mothers Day!!

Sunday, May 4, 2008

new year new me take 2

so for the start of the year I decided that I would try and lose a few pounds,.... well that has yet to happen. It has been a combination of things with work and a busy schedule being my main cop outs however i think that my total lack of time to prepare nutritious food is also right up there. I know that these are all just excuses and not good excuses however with summer here and the weather getting better everyday I do believe that I will have more outside time and be able to at least move my body more. I have also started to do more yoga at night and that seems to be helping my mind if not my body. I should state that I am not all that uncomfortable with my body, I lost 175 lbs about 4 years ago and have in the last year put about 45 back on, I know that a lot of this has to do with a work change that has me in ky car and not on the move at work a lot and I also do lots of lunch meetings that I find it hard to eat light at. I know all this and yet I am still eating and drinking my way to bigger pants. I however refuse to make this space about my weight loss battle, I just needed to put it down on blog so that it felt more real and I now have to get started for real. i will update my progress I think !
for now I am going to go and enjoy the sun with baby S. burn off the soda I had with lunch!

Sunday, April 27, 2008

home at last!!!

So I am home again from my week in st Louis. It was a very intense week of training and learning a new system and the best way to train others on said system. i was with 6 other ladies from my market. It was a very wide sampling of ladies, they ranged from early 20's to late 50's. They are from rural and not so rural areas of Ohio an west Virginia. It was a great time just watching the personalities mix. We had class from 8-5/6 daily and the nights were open to sight see and relax. we did all kinds of stuff. we went to the hard rock cafe, we went to hooters, we went to union station and saw the factory where they make tums. Our hotel was very nice and right across the street from the arch. We never did make it into the arch, they have weird hours for the ride to the top. We did take some great pics. Our hotel was also very close to cardinal stadium. On the first night we met a very nice gay man that took us on the best carriage ride. He was so sweet we paid him for a 1/2 hour ride and he took us out for about an hour and a half. he told us all the places to hit. on the last night we went to the casino. did not win any money but I did have a brush or should I say almost brush with a celebrity. My friend and I were coming back to the gaming floor from getting some great sushi and As I was trying to get m gaming card out I almost tripped into Barry Manilo! I was not sure who he was at first, I thought he was Rod Stewart, they both have a very plastic look. But we did get to see him and I was not all that impressed. he was SOOOOO drunk that he looked like one of those punching bag clowns bouncing around between his handlers.
all in all it was a great trip, I learned lots of new stuff and had time to relax and see a beautiful city. now I am able to relax and enjoy my wife and kids I think they missed me. later

Thursday, April 17, 2008


so I have been sitting on two very large things that have happened this week because I wanted to make sure that I had time to put what was in my head on screen with some care.

1st the wife came home from work the other night and told me that she had an experience at work. Now the wife works for a major reatail chain overnights, most of the people that she works with are younG and some are fairly culturaly stupid. Anywhoo, the other night one of her co-workers was having an issue with a cell phone and told it to stop being "gay", right in front of the wife.Now on any given day I can pass for straight if I want, but the wife no chance.(I am sooo jealouse). the big deal here is that My wife went on the offensive she let this young girl have it for a good 5-10 mins . She let her knwo that saying things like that is not acceptable at work or in life for taht matter, she went as far as to tell her that those kinds of remarks can even get people killed. the little girl apologized to the wife and told her it would not happen again. Now the surprising part about this is my wife is a very soft spoken don't rock the boat type of girl. she told me that she came down so hard on this girl because she is still young and moldable, she thinks she can be saved. I was just so shocked that she said anything. I guess that she finally found her breaking point. I am so so proud of her. Oh and the little girl is still apologizing days later.

2nd My wonderful beautiful 14 yr old daughter K came home and told the wife that she has a crush, no big deal right but it's on a GIRL. I was floored. She also waited till she was driving to work to tell me a good 4 hours after I got home from work!!! I know that this is going to sound weird comming from me but I am afraid for her. We live in a small town that is very redneck, I feel safe here but I worry for her, I wonder if this girl is just messing with her , I worry she will get hurt, because we all know that a woman can hurt you sooo bad. I worry that her father will blame me for this, as well as everyone else. I am also excited for her I love knowing that she is open to the idea of loving a person for who they are and what they can bring to a relationship. I am proud of her worried but proud.. thanks for letting me rant

Sunday, April 13, 2008

working vacation

So 1 week from tonight I will be sitting in the Millennium hotel in downtown St Louis. I am excited and nervous. I am going for a 1 week training class, to bring my Market up to speed with digital photography!!! This i am excited for, it's the leaving my family for a week that has me concerned. I know that my wife is very capable of taking care of the kids, I also know that we have enlisted my mom, the mother in law and are good friend T to help with the kids at night(the wife works nights) It is just the complete and total lack of control that has me going insane. I know that it is nuts, I do It's just how I do things. I have to have things in order at least in my mind. I have to know that my children are taken care of at all times and who will be doing said taking care of. It should help me knowing that no matter who has them they are with K but it doesn't I know that she will help with the boys and that most of the time she is a bigger mother hen than I am but it still doesn't help knowing that I will be hours away. I have left them overnight quite a few time and that doesn't bother me I get through letting the older two go with their father for a week at a time in the summer, I'm just nervous that something will go wrong while I'm gone. I know that i will get over it and I am sure I will find some way to enjoy myself. I am going with a great group of ladies( no family ) and have told them that they must come out with me one night to a strip club!!! We shall see if that happens, our boss is going with us and she may need the most convincing to go but I will work on that . so for now I am off to pack after all i only have 6 days and a few hours

Sunday, April 6, 2008

sunny days!

I have a rare extra Sunday off today, it's rare because I usually take my Sundays off when we have all the kids, the oldest 2 go see there "father " every weekend and spend every other Sunday with him as well, but I have worked the last 12 days in a row(even with my little injury). So I decided to take today off it is so nice outside and babyS and I have taken full advantage of it. I love spring I get all excited to clean up the yard and watch the flowers start to bloom. This time of year is soo good for my spirit. I love to take the dogs on long walks and listen to the little spring peepers in the evenings. It was fun today to watch baby S discover spring and all its joys. I like this time in a child's development, before that first bee sting when outside just holds wonder and adventure. he noticed the birds today and I think this means we will need more bird feeders so that he can watch them from his window. I have decided to pack a picnic supper wake up the wife go get the kids and go to the park with the dogs, what better way to spend a lovely spring evening! hope you all have enjoyed this wonderful wonderful happy spring day.

Thursday, April 3, 2008

I am a klutz!!

So is it bad when they know you by name at urgent care? I have once again just gotten home from urgent care. Yesterday morning while running to put the dogs out before the puppy piddled on the rug I kicked a 5lbs hand weight and broke my pinkie toe. now I know stubbing your toe hurts like hell and I have done it before and thought I had broken my toe, but this time It was sticking out side ways.Yuck!
i did this just as the wife was getting home from work and she came in and pulled my toe back where it was suppose to be and taped it to the other toe. She thought that I should have gone to urgent care right then, however I was on my way out of town for store meetings that I had scheduled a week ago, so I thought it's just my toe it will be fine. well heels were out of the question and ballet flats still hurt like hell, but work must go on. So I drove 275 miles and took 2 store meetings. It hurt like hell and when I got back to my hotel I took off shoe and my hole foot was swollen and bruised. I called the wife and she told me she didn't want to hear it that I should have let her take me to the Dr. So i whined a little bit more and went to bed. Let me just say it sucks to be 275 miles from home and the strongest pain relief that I had was midol. so I drove home today and the wife took me to urgent care and To my surprise and the docs I have a broken toe. He gave me a copy of my x-rays, a lovely black orthopedic shoe and a note for no heels for 3-4 weeks. Normally this would not be a big deal but I fly out in 3 weeks for a big corporate meeting and I can not imagine not wearing heels with half of the suits that I own. The wife has made fun of me because she knows how neurotic I am about planning and my wardrobe. each suit has it's own pair of shoes and most of my suits require heels since I am vertically challenged. My boss told me I would not be wearing my ortho shoe to corporate. I just love my job!! I am however enjoying the nice pain meds that came with the ortho shoe.

Thursday, March 27, 2008

It's Spring!!!!

Well it's officially spring and here in southeast Ohio it's still very cold. I didn't wear a coat for Christmas service and i wore one for Easter services. It makes no sense. We took the kids out bright and early to hunt eggs and they were ready to come in before all the eggs had been found. Our newest family member is doing very well and had taken to sleeping with the E. Yay for me I get my bed back. We have been to the vet with him twice now. One for a well puppy and one for a swollen face. he got bit or stung by something and looked like a prize fighter. all in all it's going well. so that is my spring update, more later.

Sunday, March 16, 2008

our new baby

we have adopted a beautiful 5 month old puppy. His name is MAC. If he grows into his legs and feet we are in soooo much trouble. He has had some separation anxiety and has not been eating but things are getting better and he is starting to warm up to us. however OkiNawa ( the wiener ) has let him know she is queen bitch and he better not forget it. I have not slept well since we got him as he is an enormous bed hog! so I am hoping that tonight will be better. wish me luck.

Monday, March 10, 2008

none of us are safe, untill all of us are safe.

I have stolen my blog title from one of my favorite blogs (Recovering Straight girl)
It is a very relevant topic that is going around the Internet and on television . It is a phrase that makes you stop and think that our community is in turmoil, our children are not safe and we as a community still have a long way to go to be treated equal. i think sometimes that because we live in a very excepting small town that we have been spoiled. I read somewhere today that in 2008 the lgbt community loses a member every 8 days to a violent crime. This outrages me and saddens me at the same time. in a time when people think that we as a community are safer than ever to lose that many people already this year should serve as a reminder that we are not as safe as we think we are. I know that a new president will not fix everything but it can't hurt. the current administration has done more to set us back and make us second class citizens than any in recent history. I know that my children and the children of there generation will change this nation to one that respects and treats all people no matter who they they love as equal. It is just a shame that we will have to wait that long for the basic rights that we deserve. it also amazes me that the children that we are raising and the children that they interact with will be the one who make us equal. I no this has gone long, but one last thing, check out awakenings.blogsome.com/. there are some great videos that talk more about this issue. It's also a great blog. thanks for letting me rant.

Thursday, March 6, 2008

life is random

So everyone in my house is healthy!!!! It has been a very good week. We got out and voted on Tuesday with wonderful results. we have been getting along. I got new pillows for my bed though I am not sure that I like them, they are great big and fluffy. i have much to my wife's displeasure remembered that I love ebay and I have been bidding and winning many auctions. I love the last min bidding wars and take pleasure even when I don't win. i am evil I take pleasure in knowing that at least someone had to pay more if I don't win.
K is getting ready to start track next week so our weeks will soon be filled with many busy evenings of track meets ( yeah). It makes for a crazy spring but we love it. k enjoys the activity and it keeps her home more.
Not much else going on we are just enjoying being healthy. hope you are all well and getting ready for the upcoming spring.
So this pic is the lighting of our family candle @ our commitment ceremony 2 yrs ago

Sunday, March 2, 2008

saying goodbye

I just recently found out that two of the people that i greatly admire are leaving the organization that i volunteer with. (equality ohio) I have come to think of these two as the entire organization. A is the person that helped me get my video produced and B put me on outQ in the morning. Now I know that the entire perpouse of this organization is to help the glbt community but I just can't help but feel slightly sad that the people that i have worked so close with are leaving. I told the wife that I was done i couldn't work with anyone else. She effectively told me to grow up. I know that the fight for equality is far from over and that i need to grow up and fight on I will just miss both of these amazing people so much. I would like to say thank you so much to both of these wonderful people they showed me that even a small town dyke can have an impact on our community. they also helped me to have confidence in myself and know that we still need to work. so my hats are off to you A&B I wish you both the best of luck and I know that what ever organization you land with will be better off for our loss.

Thursday, February 28, 2008

interesting birthday for the wife

so yesterday was the wife's 29th birthday. she is so upset about turning 29 almost the big 30. (I weep for her ,really i do) true to form we both had the lovely funk, so after a day of badgering her and juggling the kids schedules we made a lovely trip to the urgent care. we were prepared to spend all evening there and were very surprised to be the only ones in the waiting room. long story short we both have a sinus infection and bronchitis. happy birthday love. Now 12+ hours later and lots of good drugs we are both feeling better and on our way to healthy again( I hope)

Monday, February 25, 2008

i love my wife

so I have once again been under the weather, I have the flu again. My wife is so wonderful, she came home from work this morning with a dozen roses a box of kleenex and some chicken soup. She is so good to me. Her birthday is on wednesday and i have no idea what i am going to get her. she is one of those people that if she wants it she buys it. it makes it very hard to buy gifts but at least i know that she is happy. well i am off to bed to fight the flu.

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

wonderful life

this has been a wonderful week. we stayed home for valentines and had a great night as a family. It was wonderful to just hangout with the kids and not have the presure of the date night. we then had a wonderful weekend just being together. I took sunday and monday off with the kids and we just played. I love days with no plans that just work out. the wife and i have found a wonderful lesbian author by the name of Radclyffe. she writes wonderful lesbian novels. the wife is not a big reader but she finds herself unable to put her books down. I read an entire book sunday. I couldn't put it down, i kept saying 1more chapter till it was done. anyway it's just been a great lazy week. hope you are all enjoying yourselves.

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

the flu

so it is that time of year again. all 3 kids have the yuckys. K seems to be getting over hers E is just starting and baby s had a full blown something. s was put to bed tonight and ciughed so hard that he threw up all over his bed and he didn't even wake up. Scarry huh. E is doing abluteral which menas that he is wound for sound for about 1 hour after his treatments and i would like to put him in a sound proof box for that time. the wife is doing ok she seems to be safe from this round of the flu bug. I have started to feel yucky and i hope that i can beat it with out a trip to the urgent care. wish us luck and i hope the flu bug stays away from you.

Saturday, February 9, 2008

life or something like it.

so this has been a very crazy week. first K comes home from school on Monday with a cold/flu yuck. I figure at this point we will all end up with it. she misses school on Tuesday and the Nazi principal calls to find out where she is. Ummm in bed with a fever very sick. he yells about this being the week that students are counted for funding and she better have a note so they can still count her. Hello FU#$ wad she is sick, it is my prerogative as her mother to keep her home. Leave us alone. Now if she was the kind of child that missed a lot of school i could see why he called but this is the first day that she has missed all year. Sooo sorry we didn't check with you before we scheduled her with the flu. Asshole! Well E got it next though not as bad a few doses of over the counter meds and he was back to good. the wife, Spencer and i were good up until yesterday when i had to take a trip to urgent care. I had a headache that would not go away. turns out it was a muscle spasm tension induced headache that the Dr said would be helped by removing stress for my life. I had 3 call offs while i was in the Dr office. Stress what stress. So i told that nice man to sign me up for a 1 week drug induced coma. He didn't go for it, so i will fight these headaches with the very good drugs he gave me . the baby and the wife are still doing well. Fingers crossed it stays that way.

Monday, February 4, 2008

things to make you go hmmm

So to start this post i should probably say that for the most part i love my job. it is a fun job that most importantly gives me the flexible schedule that i need. with that said, my company changed hands in July of last year and i was very excited. It has however not been the wonderful change any of us had hoped for. As a division we are treated like red headed step children. we get the crap that the other divisions don't want and now we find out that it is just our division that doesn't have insurance yet(they promise they are working on it) we are also the only ones that didn't get our W2s yet. yes i am whining but it's my blog i will if i want.

thanks for letting me vent

Saturday, February 2, 2008

GO Oregon!!!!

what a week, i just found out that my company has yet to print my w2s due to a computer glitch and apparently the glitch was given to the insurance company because do to a computer error i am showing no health dental or vision insurance. i am sure this glitch will not effect them taking my premiums from my check but i digress. while it has been a bad start to the month here in small town ohio, my fellow bloggers in oregon got wonderful news to start the month. They can all be leagaly Domestic Partners. I am sooo jealous and yet so happy for them. I know it will be awhile before Ohio comes around but I know it will happen. Anyway congrats to Recovering Straight girl , Lelo and all the other wonderful portland area bloggers.

Sunday, January 27, 2008

My mom.

Tomorrow is my mothers birthday, she will be 61. As i sit here wondering what i am going to get for her i am struck by just how much she does for me still today. She and my stepfather are the ones that take care of baby S for us. I know that he is a handful for them sometimes but they can not stand the thought of someone else watching him. They also take E one night a week so he gets special grandma time. She is an amazing person. I am adopted so we have a very different kind of close special bond. I think this comes from knowing that i was a gift to her and i try and treat that with respect. Now this is not saying that i didn't give her trouble as a child or as a teen or as an adult. I mean i came out at 30. She has always stood by me no matter what, i know that is a mothers job, but when i look back at my life i think there are times that i might have walked away on me. She loves and respects my wife and treats my non biological son just as she does my bio kids. she is a truly amazing woman. I know that i will never be able to emulate her patience or her always calm attitude, i have a bit of a temper and am the most impatient person i know, but i know that my love of all people comes from her. she taught me from a very young age that all people count for something. (even if they smell like last weeks trash) I just hope that when i grow up i am able to teach my children just some of the lessons that this wonderful woman has taught me. I love you Mom.
Happy Birthday!

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

from slow sunday to CRAZY monday!

So we had a wonderful dinner on Sunday, we took one of our best friends Tara out to dinner at the kids favorite restaurant, we shopped for a bit and then went home. The wife had to work so as she was getting ready to go she kissed baby S goodnight and told me he felt warm. I gave him some Tylenol and we went to bed. He is cutting 4 teeth, only thing that is going on with him right now, no cold no nothing, so i figure it's just the teeth. Well he was a bit fussy all night not really awake just restless, so he still felt hot and i gave him some more medicine. at 6:58 am he woke me shaking or so i thought he was having a seizure, if you have never seen this it is the most terrifying thing to see your child shake and be unresponsive and his lips were blue. i ran to the bathroom with him thinking bring the fever down, i know i wasn't in my right mind but i thought about jumping in a cold shower with him. I am screaming for my 14 yr old to come because i need her, not sure why but i didn't want to be alone. She comes in and panics (like mother like daughter) I finally call the Dr's answering service and she tells Me they open in 45 Mins. My son is having a seizure and she wants me to wait BI#$% i gave her my info and told her to have the Dr call me. Meanwhile i call the wife and she is not picking up, so she calls back about 2 Mins later as the answering service beeps in and i manage to yell at the wife get your ass home baby S is having a seizure. So K gets me some clothes So i don't have to go to the er in my nightgown and she finds my shoes and as the wife pulls in baby s and i get in the car. we go to the hospital and he wakes up finally! The nurses were great 2 mommies was not an issue(yet) we got pedialite in him and some medicine for his 103.6 temp then we see the Dr an old man who we could tell did not approve of us. No big deal not everyone has to like us. He tells us the blood work is good and the urine is good and that this just happened, go home and watch him. WTF hello why did this happen why the fever, is it going to happen again????? the man had NO clue. So we left, came home and called our regular pediatrician and went to see him last night. I told him all of our concerns and what was going on and he told us baby S may have roseolla, which caused his seisure and the chances of it happening again are 1-2% . Wheww. Now today you would never know that this baby had anything wrong. no fever no nothing back to a happy gigglely baby, who knows, i'm just glad he's ok.

Sunday, January 20, 2008

Slow sundays

I so love my Sundays off. I don't get them a lot but when i do we always try and do something fun with the kids. So i asked them what they wanted to do and they have decided that we are going to go out for dinner at there favorite restaurant. so today we will be driving about an hour for dinner at this fabulous Japanese steak house. Lazy day and i don't have to cook! The first time we took the kids to this restaurant they had no idea what was going to happen, they had never been to a hibachi grill and the chef had E in tears, he thought that he was going to burn the place down. But now many trips later it is there fave and i swear E could eat his weight in fried rice. I like it because no one else in the family likes Sushi and this gives me the chance to eat sushi YUMMY. so hope you all have and equally lazy happy Sunday.

Monday, January 14, 2008

Back to work

So today was my first full day of work after a 13 day vacation (during which i did nothing!). It was a long day i spent 5hrs driving and 6 hours on the job. It was a good drive. I listened to a couple of podcasts i have been saving for a long drive and i laughed my ass off at the dykedrama girls. I told my boss that i have decided to stay with the company and have decided that i am going to be back at full bitch mode very soon. I have 48 ladies that directly report to me and i swear that most of the time it is like babysitting instead of managing adults. I mean i have a job to do and we all have issues, but damn just go to work and do your job. That is what you get paid for. I have one woman sending me text messages that are completely not OK. IF she were a man she would be gone no questions asked, but since she is a woman they think it's not sexual harassment. (BULLSHIT). I am out at work have been everyone that works for me knows that i have a wife it's not OK. Anyway, i have decided that i will keep this job in part do to that fact that my boss J lets me make my own schedule and i can take off the time that i need to volunteer with Equality Ohio. Now for the big news.... I have been asked to help find a place to screen the documentary For the Bible tells me so, in our area. I was very excited to be apart of this , I just hope that i don't screw it up. Well off to bed.

Thursday, January 10, 2008

I look like a dyke again!!!!

So I had decided that I wanted to grow my hair out long again. I should probably start by saying that i normally wear it short, very short about 1 1/2 inch long sexy, spiky, messy, dyke doo. WELL I thought i would let it grow. Now at first it's just a longer version of what I'm use to, then it gets really long and heavy and it wont do anything. I know it's got to look bad before it gets better but man it was getting bad. I went to my stylist and told her i was done i new i couldn't handle it and i was getting a mullet. She sat me down and trimmed the back and told me i was done. The wife laughed her ass off. I went back a week later and she trimmed it i mean trimmed it about 1/4 of an inch. I thought OK she is just doing what i told her i wanted to do (let it grow). I in the mean time am looking like a shaggy dog. I hated it. However the same girl has done my hair forever and i am kind of funny when it comes to my hair so i have just let it grow. that was until the wife stopped wanting to cuddle in bed. my hair was bothering her. Off to the mall we went and I look like a dyke again. yeah pics to follow if i can get them to load. It's funny i didn't realise that my confidence was slipping, until I walked out of the salon and My mother even told me i looked happier. It's funny what we associate with our hair.

I should clarify the wife didn't like to snuggle because my hair would go up her nose no fun for her. She would love me no matter what.

Saturday, January 5, 2008

new year new me

SO the new year is here and i have yet to make any real resolutions. I mean other than the fact that i am going to live my life as a gay woman, in every way all the time. I have been thinking that i want to do more activism. I went to the democratic caucus for my Congressional district the other night to get people to sign postcards for Equality Ohio. the goal is to get as many like minded people to sign post cards so that someday i may not be able to be fired for being gay in the state of Ohio. The wife and I went with one other gentleman. It was an experience, we weren't sure what to expect and it turned into a very eye opening experience. WE got to the event and it was cold 15 degree with wind cold, and we were told we would be outside. We went in and used the bathroom and the woman who was running the caucus told us that we could stand in the vestibule and not outside her words were "it's to damn cold for that." So i told her what we were there for and she immediately yells for her sister to come and meet us. Now her sister was a very nice looking iron worker.(enough said) She filled out a our postcard and took a large stack of them and handed them out. It was very nice to know that we had friends on the inside at that point. So the wife is a very quiet person, and she was volunteered for this she told me she would do back up for me and just be there with an extra clip board in case i needed it. Well she decided to approach a couple of men and told them what we were doing and the one man said " i ain't got time for homos" needless to say she didn't ask anyone else to sign. I felt bad for her. She said she would be glad to do this again in a more gay environment. I should say the majority of the people there were steel and iron worker union members, kind of an intimidating bunch of men. but back to my original point. I have decided that along with doing more yoga this year I am going do volunteer at least once a month for some queer activism. Oh and i am done pretending that i want to grow my hair out i am a dyke and i like my short dyke hair. The wife is rejoicing , she hates it long and by long i mean maybe 4 inches. so happy new year.

Tuesday, January 1, 2008

Happy New Year!

I hope that this year is a great year for us all. I am going to do my part and help to facilitate change in on way or another, this is my resolution. I am going to love my wife openly and not give a shit who is around every single day, i will show these close minded idiots that we are just a normal family and they better get use to us because our day is coming, I know it is my children are proof of that. I know the next generation is already the one that will make sure that GLBT people are just people. OK so enough soap box Have a wonderful happy equal new year