So i am going to start this post my saying that i know that we are all human and that we all make mistakes. The point is that I made a huge mistake,well i have been making a huge mistake. i chose to have an affair, now I say i chose to but i don't think that it was a conscious decision but i know that I allowed it to happen. This affair started as a simple flirting situation, that grew into a fling that grew into the biggest mistake of my life. I met this person on threw my job and because she and I worked fairly close to one another it was easy to flirt and she was such a talker that she soon ha me feeling all special and kind of like a kid again. Now I guess I should say that she also had a girlfriend that also works in the same building. i think at first this added tot the fun for me it was kind of like a big secret would we get caught flirting would she notice how her girl went out of her way t fin a reason to even walk into my department. Well about a week before my birthday I mentioned that i wanted to go out for my birthday. she jumped all over this and we decided to go out on a double date. here is where all the trouble really started. We exchanged phone numbers and then all hell broke loose. we started to text and we flirted more threw texts we texted at least 50 times a day and then we started to talk on the phone. all this in a weeks time. Well we decided to meet outside of work and one thing led to another and next thing i know I'm kissing her in my car. We all still went out that weekend and i was fun till she got way to drunk and her girl got mad. that night I spent 2 hours holding her head while she puked he guts out. My wife talked to the girlfriend for that whole time and we found out that they had major problems. Long story shorter we ended up befriending them to the point that my wife invited my new fling to move in with us....AND SHE DID. this was a move that both made the affair easier and my life much more complicated. Needless to say i got caught. My wife was devastated and hurt and for awhile I thought she was going to take baby S and leave me . She didn't THANK THE GODDESS.
but now to the point of this blog..... I let a hormonal Surge almost ruin my life, the attention that this girl showed me was in no way worth losing my wife and family over. I have since found out that this girl played me, she promised me the moon and there is no way that she could have delivered it. Not that I wanted her to I never had any intentions of leaving my wife, this was just a flirtatious adventure that got way out of hand. I think part of it was that she is 8 years younger than I am and her girlfriend is only 22 and she still wanted me. I was in heaven with the special treatment she gave me opening doors, putting on my jacket, little gifts and all that. all the things my wife use to do before babyS came along and she went back to school. I missed it, i wont lie. BUT i know that this is not worth loosing the love of my life over. She has agreed to stay and says she forgives me. I know that i have a lot of work to do to prove to her that I can be trusted and that she should even want to stay amazes me. She tells me that she knows i am only human and that we all make mistakes. i thank the Goddess that she didn't leave me and I know that I will do All that is in my power to make this up to her. If your still reading this wish me luck!! Iguess the moral of this little tale is never forget what you have at home is what you really want and need or it wouldn't be what was at home in the first place.