It's all over

Well christmas came and went and with it the inlaws. many presents were recieved by the children and by the wife and i. My mother gave us a AAA membership which since i drive 1000+ miles a week reakky makes sence, the inlaws gave us new end table lamps, they make the living room look so homey, The children recieved so much that i'm not even sure what all they got. my ex husband did buy E a cell phone, the must unpractical gift concidering we have no cell service here at home and he goesno where else. But his money. K got lots of money and gift cards, so i am dreading the trip to the mall, i may have the wife take her. I just can not shop with her, we are way too different. The wife has the aptients of a saint, god love her. baby s got a new trike, and he love it, my toes don't care for it but he loves it. all in all the holiday was great. I went back to work today and the kids went to their fathers. so for the next 5 days it's just me and the wife and baby s. I miss them when they go, but they seem to be soo much more greatful when they come back.
It was a good day, untill i read a blog from oregon, i feel for you all with the newest news in the DP drama, my fingers are crossed that this is just a delay.

Merry Christmas!

I hope everyone has a wonderful holiday. I am done, it's all wrapped and under the tree. The 2 oldest come home this evening and the wife and baby S are napping. I am awaiting th in laws and am about to enjoy a good cup of coffee and a book to unwind. Have a great holiday!

almost Christmas

I love this time of year. I really do. With the job that i do sometimes i forget that the holidays anr suppose to be fun and not all about the screaming parents and there bratty kids with snot all over their faces. I just have to remember to step back and remember that it is all about family. We(I) have completed the holiday gifts tht we make every year for the grandparents. I have made wreaths for the last 5 years or so and my mother told me she was running out of places to put them, so this year we (i) made them lighted swags with cinnamon applesauce gingerbread men. My wonderful associate Tonya gave me the recipe for the gingerbread men and my house has smelled wonderful for the last month while they have been setting up, and awaiting their home. They turned out great and i hope the grandparents like them. I am in the process of getting the house in shape for company. I know in my heart that no one is going to be looking to find my dust bunnies but I still have to make sure they are well hidden. Well off to bed,

can i just say OUCH!!!!!

So today i went to see an orthopedic specialist for my knee. It was a visit i feel has long been put off, but what do i know i am just the injured person. I went in today and the dr poked and prodded and then told me that my MRI and my x-rays all looked normal. so it was soft tissure damage. Yeah?? then he whips out a ginormous needle and tells me that we are going to do a cortisone shot. I kid you not the needle was all of 4 inches long and i was scared, but the wife was with me so i didn't cry. He numbed the skin before he drove the needl in but it still hurt like HE@@. However 4 hours later and the knee feels much better. I know this is a bandaid of sorts, but at least now i might be able to work out again. I swear i have put on 20 pounds from the start of this and i hate it. oh well the wife says she wants to start running afeter the first of the year so i will start fresh then too
outa here.

hmmmm

Well December is here and the holiday portrait rush is almost over, thank you lord!!!
Just one more week and life can slow down for a few months. I love my job and what i do, i just miss some of the time in the studios now that i have my own market and not my own studio. I miss being the one that gets that great holiday pic. I still get to shoot but not like i use to. I will be so glad when next Sunday is over. I mean then maybe i can focus on my families Christmas stuff. We haven't even really started on the home made gifts yet. I do like to pretend that i am crafty this time of the year. I found a cute idea and we have gotten the supplies to do said project it had just yet to happen. It will , it may be Christmas eve but it will happen. I also just got confirmation on all the guests that we will be having for Christmas breakfast. My parents, the wife's parents, the wife's sister her husband and their 2 kids, our friend t and the ex in laws all over for breakfast. I am actually excited! this is the one time we all get together and it is usually fun. Ohh yeah i forgot E had his tonsils out and is doing great, one bad day but that is all. He lucked out and only had to miss 2 days of school, the other 3 were snow days!!! less make up work for the moms! well I am off to TRY and get baby S to sleep. Wish me luck

It realy happends everywhere

Well today was a Shitty day. I love the small town that we live in, for the most part. It is the same town that i grew up in, i know 75% of the people in this town and if i don't My mother does. Anyway homophobia showed it's ugly head today in my safe little town, and it was directed at my family. Yesterday the wife decided to finally fix the leaky kitchen sink and ended yo making it worse, we were still trying to fix it a midnight and gave up for the night. This morning she sent my favorite little cousin to the hardware store here in town to get a part that they needed to finish the project. He came home and told her that the owner of the hardware store refused to take our check. Not because he had a signed check but because of the tag line on our check. (you've got your hands on GAY money) Now the line is very very small and most people don't even notice it. We have had a few and the y just give us a look, but never has it been refused. So i called the owner of this little hardware store and he told me i wasn't forcing my beliefs on him. Now i was not trying to force anything on him i just wanted to get my sink fixed and be able to make a cup of coffee. I should probably tell you that i have known this man my entire life and until today i have loved his store. The guys in there have always been helpful and i know them all by name. I was told that if I wanted to purchase anything it would need to be with cash. I'm sure you know that we will never shop there again. I have told everyone that i know about this and am still very very mad. I was most upset when we told the kids about it and it made K lose her appetite. I was shocked at how much it seemed to affect her. I guess homophobia hurts more than just the gays. enough for now

Happy late Thanksgiving

Well the week is almost over and the holiday was great. We went to the in laws and the wife and i deep fried the turkey. I have to say it was wonderful. I was so glad the we didn't ruin the day by making a horrible turkey. It was yummy and i am glad the wife insisted that we try and do the fried turkey. We had a great visit with the inlays and the day could only have been better had the older two kids been with us. My life is about to get very hectic i work in the commercial photography business and the next 3 weeks will be nuts. my life is crazy enough and then i manage 50 women, it can suck, but it is fun most of the time. we have a great group of women for the most part. e has to have his tonsils out on the 3rd of December and he is a little concerned about it, i think he will be fine. I am just worried that he has to miss the school play, he gets to just stand there and look good, not a prob for the kid since he is soo cute. well got to fly i need my sleep. Ohh speaking of sleep baby s is sleeping all night in his bed!!!! EXCEPT, when the wife is home at night. I told her she needs to find somewhere else to live i need my sleep.

busy week

So this week has been crazy, i know it is only tuesday but i am already planning a work schedule for 50 for next week. MY bosses boss is in town for a few days visiting us so we played nice and did store tours today, not hard work but mentally draining. I am still dealing with the bum leg and it doesn't seem to be getting any better. I am so frustrated that i am close to giving upon it and learning to live with the constant discomfort. The wife and I were suppose to go out tomorrow with friends for dinner drinks and a movie and an over night stay for us but with the boss in town that ain't happening. Oh well i will take a rain check. If she knows what's good for her. Anyway, of to bed to try and sleep one more day of mental drain then back to the real work. oh an just a note the wife let my mother cut baby s's curls alll off i cried he looks so much older now.

i did it!

So today was my big radio debut, not yesterday like i was confused. It went well I think. Kristy listened in the other room and told me i didn't sound to stupid. I know that it was just 20 mins of my life but it made me think. The host asked how we live our livees each day in a red state. I guess the answer for me is i don't know how else to live. I live in the same house that i grew up in. My 7year old son had the same kindergarten teacher that i had for 3rd grade. It is how we live. The rainbow district of our town is my yard, but i feel safe here, i know my kids are safe and well looked out for. I just think that if we can make other towns this gay aware if not gay friendly we would be soo much better off as a nation and not just for gay people but for us as a civilization. Enough rant

OutQ in the Morning

Have you ever had on of those days? I had one yesterday. I had the day off of work so the wife and i went shopping and to lunch. We found a new sushi restaurant in the small college town that we live close to so we tried it out yummmy. We also got a few home improvement items for a few projects around the house. It was a great great day. Then we got home and it got better. I got a call from equality Ohio asking me to do a radio broadcast on Monday. I was speechless. Would i like to do it ??? yes i was sooo blown away. I will be talking about being a gay family in a RED state. It's not always easy but it is how we do things. I am honored to think that they have enough confidence in me to think that i can handle this. I'll let you know how it goes.

still in limbo

so went to the doc today for the injured leg, it is still no better. The doc has told me that i have now inured my hip by favoring my knee. I am still only allowed to drive for 4 hours which with my job only allows me to cove about a 1/3 of my area. It sucks and the boss wants me back at full speed. It sucks because i feel like i am letting her down but i know that i need to do this to fully recover from the accident. therpy seems to be helping a bit but who knows. i am just sooo frustrated. but maybe soon i will be back up to speed. later days

dear MRS president

well here it is my first political blog. I must start this by saying that until baby s was born i was not at all apolitical person. there is just something about having your basic freedoms stripped from you for being who you are that tend to get me rilled up, but any who... I was very much a barack obama supporter, that is until yesterday. I was shocked and appalled that the man that thought would help to give me the right to marry my wife someday would commit such political suicide as to put at "recovering " homosexual on any part of his campaign . It just made me stop and think that if this man is that stupid then i really do not want him running my country. I know that it was probably not his decision but you would think that he would know a little bit about what was going on. I am sure that he would never put a member of the KKK on the campaign trail with himself, i just want to say wake up you just lost one vote for shear stupidity. I know that the gay vote is only 10 % but look at bush's first theft of office that 10% would have went a long way that night. any way i feel better now that I have ranted and the wife won't have to listen to me for a few mins. later OH i almost forgot I guess my chant for 2008 is Hillary for president!!!!!

ahhhhh the in laws are comming!!!!

So my in laws are coming up this weekend for a trip to the zoo. I have known that this visit is this weekend for some time now , since i planned this one, what i didn't count on was k's running schedule to get changed at the last minuet and for them to have to actually spend the night in my home. It was suppose to work out that we met here and drove to Columbus and overnight there. you know a few mins in the house and then out the door for a fun filled weekend. now they are staying here. I should say that i love my in laws and am glad to have them up for that weekend. it's just that since i injured my knee and the wife has been sick the house is not in the best of shape. I don't want you to think it's a site or anything but it's not in mother in law shape. so now i have to clean Yuck. iknow i should be doing it now but i am on here complaining about it instead. I love this blog now i bitch and whine here and not as much at home . thanks for listining.

Proud MOM

Well today was k's biggest cross country meet of the season, it was the league championship. For some reason the cc Gods decides to drop the temp here in Ohio by about 30 degrees today and the kids had great weather to run in. Let me just start by saying this sport has taught me what it is to be a sport mom. I don't care who you are or where you place cc parents cheer for everyone, the first person to the last. You also yell encouragement to every child that looks like they need it, weathered you know the kid or not. It is a great group of people. I have had a great time this year and the wife and i feel like each of the kids are now at least a Little bit ours. It;s funny how that happens. But i digress all of our kids ran their guts out tonight, I have never Been so proud of a bunch of kids in my life. Our boys came in second place in the league and it was close only 4 points separated them from the win. However my wonderful, beautiful and talented daughter came in 2o Th beating her personal best time by 1min and 34 seconds. I have never seen this kid so determined. She ran so hard at the end that she blacked out for about 30 seconds. I was still doing my happy dance and missed it but she recovered and asked for a hot dog so i guess she was OK. any who she did sooo well that she has gotten her varsity letter in Cross Country and she is only a freshman. I am soooooo very proud of her. i am just beaming

isn't it all suspose to be about me???

Well let me start by saying that i know i can be a very self absorbed person. I don't think that over all this makes me a bad person. I am just quite controlling and i like things done my way. I am not a neat freak and i am most of the time a really good person. My kids always come first and i am a great mother so they say. I am however having some issues with not being the center of my wives universe. I know that she loves me and i know that she loves our kids, it just seems like i have taken the back seat to the baby and yes i am whining here i know that he needs her more than i do but i find my self being soooo jealous of him. Now before the hate mail i know that this is selfish and i know that i am being dumb. It;s just that with her working nights we have very little us time and when we get a few minutes i feel like she is either to tired to deal with me or the kids have her preoccupied. I know I'm an adult and should be able to handle this, i just feel so rejected sometimes. I know that she loves me and that she would do anything for me and she is great with helping with the house and the kids. It just seems lately like we are roommates and not spouses. I sometimes wonder what it would be like to just go away for a week with just us, no kids no dogs just us even just 72 hours of uninterrupted us time. I know this is a dream and that i don't have to worry about it happening any time soon we could neither one leave the baby for that long, but It's nice to dream.

for my daughter

I just stopped by one of my favorite blogs (Recovering Straight Girl) and saw her amazing post. It made me stop and think about body image and what i do to my wonderful daughter. She is amazing and sooo beautiful on the outside, and even more so on the inside. I do not take any credit for the fact that she has a strong self esteem. I am just glad that she does. If you haven't seem the new dove beauty product ads you should check them out. In this house from now on we only buy dove.
http://www.campaignforrealbeauty.com/dsef07/t5.aspx?id=7373&filmno=0
check it out, it will amaze you what we are doing to young girls.

first dance.

well this entire week has been consumed with the preparation for k's first high school dance. She has been so excited , not to mention the fact that she was grounded and didn't get out of trouble until the day of the dance. she is so cute, i told her that if she didn't stop talkin about the dance i would extend her grounding and she burst into tears, i was kidding but it was still funny. it got her to stay quiet for all of about 10 mins. I guess it's hard to remember the excitement of that first dance. In other news both k and E got mid terms on Fri. K is doing well in all classed but 2 and we have talked about those. My man though is getting all A's he got only one grade below a 100 and that was an 86 so my boy is doing sooooo well. I had some thoughts about holding him back and now i am sooo glad we did. hello it is 12 am and my phone just rang. K just got asked out by a Jr. He called my house at 12 am....... he may need to die. but she looks happy, i must go listen in .. more later

weekend wariors

so this weekend started off with a trip and a fall. I was at work on Friday and some how managed to trip over a power cord and hurt myself. I have injured my left knee , and now am in an immobilizer. This would be all well if i could slow down long enough to enjoy being hurt hahahh
However the wife is sick and the kids have stuff going that is non stop so off i hobble to be with the family. On an up note our darling daughter ran an amazing race this weekend. she got a meddle and beat the one girl that she has been gunning for. I was a proud mom to say the least. as i said the wife is sick, she has missed 3days of work. we got to urgent care for my knee and she was seen as well, 2 birds 1 stone type of deal. I'm glad they saw her the doc told her that had she waited her little cold could have ended up an pneumonia.soo instead of a weekend of being babied we took care of each other . I had to take a post accident drug test today and a word of advice to the lady who handed me the piss cup and expected me to carry it while on crutches wake up moron.

feelin special

well about a month ago I did a little project with equality Ohio, it was a digital story tellers workshop. The purpose was to get glbt issues out to the straight people. IT was a very intense 3 days, and i met some very wonderful women. Anywhoo i got an email today form A at equality Ohio and they would like my family and i to be photographed for some promo stuff!!! We are all soo excited. I told them anything that we can do to help. i feel so special. I just hope that through this and the digital stories that we are able to help people see us as just a normal small town family. I know that is how our community sees us. I mean after they got to know us and realised that we aren't any different than they are we just have better sex. (jk) seriously if people would just take the time to get to know 1 glbt family then they would see that we aren't any different. I still go to work and cook and do laundry. I still have the same worries for my kids, plus a few extra that go with my lifestyle. I don't understand what it matters who i sleep with at night. well enough bitchin for now more to come I'm sure.

what a day!

So the school year has started and so far so good. daughter has started high school and likes it. Son 1 is is in first grade and doing well. We have only beento the principals office once and that was just to inform the man that the wife and are the support system for the daughter and he better never threaten her with "calling daddy " again. I have never been so irate. good thing the wife went with me or i may have ended up in jail. Any whoo we are doing well and life has been nuts, daughter runs cross country and keeps us all busy. We love it. I wish that i had the passion that she has for it. She knows she will never win a race but she runs for the joy it brings her. I admire her so much, i just hope she doesnt realise it to soon and i lose the upper hand that i have with her. well must run.

so here goes nothing

well this is it i'm about to start the blogging adventure. I am not sure why I think tha my life will be of any intrest to any of you but what the hell, it's worth a shot and awhole lot cheaper than therapy. First off my name is Shelly, I am 30 something and a mother to 3. I am wife to one , even if I can't actually claim her on my taxes. We had a lovely commitment ceremony and i still have to cook and clean for her so I am claiming her as my wife. Not to mention she is the love of my life and one if my greatest joys. Our children are K she is 14, E he is 7 and the baby S is just about to turn 1 I can;t believe he is that old already. The older 2 kids entered the relationship with me and my baby and i Made S together, Hahahaha give me sperm and I'm lethal. We also have a veritably farm of animals, 2 dogs 3 cats and some fish.
I met my Love on line in 2004 while she was serving in the Air force. She was in japan at the time and i was just starting to come out to more people, so it seemed like a good time to meet her, she was after all 80000 miles away, with almost a year left to be there. It seemed safe, that is until she stole my heart in that very first 10 hour conversation. Anyway, after a messy divorce and great court ship we are together now in a very small Conservative little town with a gay population of 10 on a good day (depends on who the bisexual is dating). I figure i will let you know how this small town dyke and her family make it work because you know
what's a lesbo to do.