I think I need to dyke it up some!

The wife called me at work today to inform me that I am no longer allowed to freak out over spiders. Apparently S freaked out today because there was a spider near him. He came running in the room screaming ewww ewww, bug,get it, spider, spider, kill it. Yeah that's me Spiders turn me into a big ole blubbering baby. I hate them, they have to many legs and they are just creepy looking. I guess that I will have to dyke it up and try..... Like that's going to happen.

daughter

As you all know I have a 16yr old daughter. She was in a very bad high school relationship that thankfully ended this summer. She then started dating a guy that was very sweet and treated her well. here's the problem this boy reminds me of the way my ex husband was back in high school. this boy was polite and kind and had absolutely no desire to do anything ambitious with his life. This may sound wrong and I hope it doesn't come out mean but he is just so not what I want for my daughter. Well she broke up with him on Thursday and this kid is still coming over and calling and begging her for another chance. He told me tonight that his life is over so he is going to join the Marine Corp and die before he is 30. I thought we dykes had drama, it seems like nothing compared to the high school drama at my house. Any who the daughter has decided that she is going to be single until she gets through basic training in 2 years. If i can get that lucky i will thank the goddess. On a happy note she ran today in the pouring down rain and had a great finish and put up a great time for the weather. there is no way i would have been able to run 3.2 miles in the mud and rain. We are very proud of her everytime she crosses the finish line!!!!

FML update

I am on vacation this week and haven't heard anything from work, well from the boss anyway. My girls call me everyday. I have decided that I am going to take everyones advice and get my ducks in a row and get ready to go back to school!

FML

I have worked for the same company for the last 10 years, I have worked in several different positions for this company, I have made them lots of money, and now I am pretty sure that I am going to be fired. At closing the other night a woman reached into my cash drawer and stole $ 40. I have the bitch on tape and I have her name and cell number. I followed all the procedures that the company says to follow now it's Monday and it looks like my regional is saying it was gross neglect on my part. So as I sit writing this I am faced with what to do? do I try and fight for a job I am very good at but also very tired of. Do I let them fire me and move on. I have been wanting to go back to school for sometime and just haven't taken the step. I can go to school tuition free. I have applied for finical aid and have been offered more than enough to make ends meet. I am just frustrated and angry and confused. I know that if I lose my job i will be forced to push my side business harder. I just feel like I am drifting and don't know where to go or what to do. I am trying to look at this as a sign that it's time for change but who knows. I do know that I am going to be OK my kids are safe and loved we have a home and food and I know that all will work out in the end. thanks for listening.

Fall

It is starting to get cool here in Ohio, I love this time of year. I love the cool evenings and the leaves as they start to change. I love the first fires in the fire place, just to keep the chill out. I love raking a big pile of leaves and jumping in with the kids. I love love love Halloween and the harvest moon. I love everything about this time of year. My birthday is coming and I will be 35 this year. It was about this time 6 years ago that I decided to officially end my marriage(which had been over for years) and live my life as I should. I met my wife not long after and came screaming out of the closet. As I get ready to celebrate this year it is really a celebration of many things. My coming out, my birthday, my family and this year. this year I feel like I have really grown into the person that I can be. I know that I will grow and change more but this year I have become so in tune with who I am and what I want that I am glad it's a milestone birthday. I want to celebrate and be happy, I am at peace with myself and I think that has a lot to do with this wonderful community that I have found.the support and understanding that I get is amazing. so as I get ready to celebrate all that is good and right with my life I want to say thank you to you all for all that you do.
Shelly

loving my baby

I wrote an article for the gay news here locally about butch/femme relationships. Now at our house we don't have roles that we play but we are the typical looking butch/femme couple. I have said it here before and I will say it over and over I love butch women. So I will leave you with one of my favorite quotes.
I love butch girls. Girls with slick, shiny, barbershop haircuts, trimmed so short your fingertips can barely grip it. Girls with shirts that button the other way. Girls that swagger... Girls who get stared at in the ladies' room, girls who shop in the boys department, girls who live every moment looking like they weren't supposed to. Girls with hands that touch me like they have been exploring my body their entire lives... It is the girls that get called sir every day who make me catch my breath, the girls with strong jaws who buckle my knees, the girls who are a different gender who make me want to lay down for them. - Tristan Taormino

my baby back in the day

So this is how my baby rolled back in the day. ( she is so going to kill me) hahaha

this is how we roll

so this is how we spend a quiet night at home all of us on the couch with a netfix movie going on both computers. tonights feature Mrs doubtfire. on Sunday we watched Clash of the titans. hope you all are having a relaxing evening.


Oh and K went to run for cross country practice and fell down a hill so I spent the evening in the ER she has a sprained knee and ankle and is on crutches for a week. she is also quite pissy because they told her no running, oh well such is life.