Middle man

Well the middle man will be 11 tomorrow. I can't believe that he will be 11, where has the time gone. We are having a small family party tomorrow for him. He asked if I would take him and his bff to a movie and I of course said yes. they want to see a movie that isn't out yet so we will do it when it comes out. He is so cute he asked for a paper jam for his birthday and I had no idea what it was so I went to the toy section and found one. it's a small guitar like thing that plays music. I don't get it but it's what he wanted so i got it.
I miss my blog and all of you. I hope to get back to blogging regulary very soon. hope you all are well and looking forward to the holiday!

Nov already?

Wow I have been gone forever! So much has changed and I will update soon. just wanted to let you all know ( if anyone is still out there reading) I'm doing great the kids are great and life is good!

YAY!

The little man is coming today and staying until thursday! I can't wait to have all the kids in the house again! I miss him like crazy. It will be nice to have them all here and underfoot! pics to follow the visit!

summer time

It seems like this summer is flying by way to quick. I have been super busy with work and a crazy schedule so I feel like I haven't seen the children nearly as much as I want too. I miss them and they are here. K started conditioning for cross country and it makes me want to cry. This is her 6th season, she is going to be a senior in high school and that makes me want to cry. I can not believe that my little girl is that old. it seems like yesterday she was born and in a month she starts her last year of high school. I am a mess just writing that, I can't imagine what it will be like when I say I'm sending her off to basic training. E is going to start 4th grade this year and is excited to be back in school. S maybe starting preschool in the fall if all goes well! My babies are growing up and I am not at all excited. but enough sad this weekend the cop and I are meeting up with Kristy and our friend Amy to go to the Zoo!!!! I will have all 3 of my kids together!!! I miss having S here all the time so what time I get with him is so special. I can't wait to see his face when he sees the polar bears. I love the zoo! have a great week !

updates

I can not believe I haven't posted for a month. It has been crazy busy here and at work. The kids are having a great summer and I am hoping that we are able to do somethings before it gets away from us. WE are planning a trip to the zoo to see the new polar bear exhibit, and maybe a camping trip with my mom. It should be fun.
Life with the cop is never ever dull and we are getting along very very well. The kids adore her and she loves being around them (she spoils them rotten). I will tell you that I never thought I would date a cop and it has been quite the adjustment I don't like worrying every time she is on duty. It was getting better until she went back to the local sheriff department and they put her on the tactical team. Now I worry even more, I'm adjusting it's just hard every time she walks out the door I say a little prayer and I'm not a religious person. On another note I really like her family. Her mom took me to bingo and I even won a few games. I think that she is what I have always needed and just didn't know it. ( and yes Jude I like the other perks too:)!) I hope that I can get back to blogging soon it just seems like we never stop I have started biking and hope that someday I learn to like it as much as lifting weights. So I hope you are all enjoying your summer and the pride season.
I will return to blogging I just have to find time!

NEW INK!!!!

I went Monday and got some new ink! I am excited and will post pics as soon as it looks better. I got a white tree on my left forearm and it is soooo cool. Things are going well here. Kristy and I are doing very well as friends and I am so glad that we chose to end our romantic relationship while we still like each other. I still love her and hold a special place for her in my heart. It is good to know that we can still be a family and take care of our kids and not want to kill each other or have petty fights anymore. WE are both moving on with our lives but still holding to our family.This may sound odd but it is good to see her smile again and have it show in her eyes. The kids are well, K's first prom is this weekend we have a few more things to get then we will be done. E should start baseball soon and I'm excited! Kristy is going to help coach a little league softball team so I see lots of time at the park for us this spring!!! have a great week!

hmmmm

Just wanted to check in and let everyone know how much I appreciate the good thoughts and vibes!!! I am doing well and am hanging in. Life is crazy as we get ready for the prom and all that is going on in the next few weeks. We signed E up for baseball last night and he is super excited. have a couple weddings to shoot soon and I hope they get me out of the funk I have been in with shooting, I haven't picked up a camera in weeks, and I miss it. I miss the creative outlet and need some form of motivation. Anyone need pics taken??? so hope your all well talk soon