small town dyke.

Turkey day!

2011-11-25T12:36:00.001-05:00

So yesterday was the first time I have ever cooked a full thanksgiving dinner. It went well and We had lots of good food and great wine. My mother joined us and we fed the grandparents as well. It was wonderful having all the kids here together for the holiday. Hope you all had a great day and lots to be thankful for.

Middle man.

2011-11-10T11:04:00.002-05:00

Today my middle man is being honored for being on the honor roll. It's funny he started middle school this year and has done well but you could tell he missed some of the things they did in elementary school for example when he brought home his report card he said well looks like they dont have awards for middle school. I told him how proud of him we are and he was given a reward for a job well done.... so what shows up in the mail last week ... an invitation to the awards assembly at the middle school. Middle man left the house today all dressed up and walking on air. Gotta love the diva that he is...
have a great day.

the details

2011-11-07T07:54:00.002-05:00

So as I said lots has happened since I last wrote a real blog. so here are the details

First I ended the relationship with the cop many many months ago. I never should have started a relationship that soon to K and I ending but hind sight is always better. We parted as friends.

then I lost my job. I had worked for the largest portrait company in the US for the last 13 years. I had given this company my heart and soul and at times much much more. they rewarded me with a pink slip in corporate cut backs. so it's been about 6 months and I am adjusting, weighing my options and planning the next move. I am going back to school just figuring out what I need to take and what I want to do. It's kinda nice to know that they have to pay for at least the first 2 years of my schooling!

next I sold my house... the house that I had lived in 30 of my 37 years. In July I decided I wanted to sell and sold it in just 56 days. The house was on 33 acres and was more than I wanted to deal with anymore. It had a wood burner for heat, well water and a bridge that had seen better days. I thought I would miss it but I don't . I love my new home. It is in town has 10 ft ceilings, hard wood floors, city water and central heat! I have room for herbs and a few veggie plants, a wonderful rose garden and lots of great landscaping, oh and it's paid for!!! no more house payments for me!!!!

now ... I found out this weekend that K was offered a job in another state and she and little man will be moving about 8 hours away. I am still processing this and while I will miss him like crazy I know we will work something out. I am happy for K this is a great opportunity for K and little man and I wish her well.

last but not least I am with a wonderful lady who has made me smile threw all that has happened and to me that seems like a wonderful way to start things.

So that is me and the changes. I am well and hope that you all are as well. I have missed this and will be here much more.

New chapter

2011-11-04T10:23:00.002-04:00

So I have been MIA for a long long time I thought about getting rid of the blog, or changing the blog, or moving the blog to a new home but decided this is my space and I am not leaving. I dont even know if anyone still checks to see what is going on here, but I have decided to update because a bunch has happend since I wrote the last blog post.

A new love

2011-06-11T21:35:00.004-04:00

So if you have read my blog for log you will remember that a little over a year ago I had to have my beloved weenie dog put to sleep. She had seizures and iwas for the best... (I know this but it is still hard to wright that.) Any whooo Today I saw a friend of mine who has weenies and she told me that one of her dogs had gotten killed and that she was/had been bottle feeding two little girls. She showed me a picture and my heart just melted. She is a long haired black and tan weenie so she has all the qualities that I love about weenies but she doesn't look a thing like Okie! This is all good news for me since I brought her home tonight!!! she is the most adorable thing I have ever seen. I plan to love her to pieces!!!

Zombie Love!

2011-06-05T22:56:00.003-04:00

The happy couple!

wacky weeding weekend!

2011-06-04T08:37:00.002-04:00

This weekend I am shooting the wedding of a dear friends son. Nothing to spectacular about that but then you don't know Owen.... This young man is a Zombie nut, so the wedding maybe all nice and normal but the reception is going to be a ball. the first dance is a zombie love song, how cool is that! the bride has a good sense of humor so I am hoping they let me do some out of the box stuff. Have a great weekend everyone.

what a week!

2011-06-03T08:17:00.002-04:00

So last week we had 6 graduations total!!! 2 for the daughter, 1 for her boy toy, 1 for middle man, one for little man!! and one for a friends daughter!! it was a crazy crazy week. I am so glad that it's over and I was glad to get back to work! This week has been great I spent time with a dear friend and will be shooting a wedding this weekend. I think summer is going to be great this year, I have plans to do lots of camping and things with the kidos. Hope your all enjoying the sun!!!

3 down 1 to go!!!

2011-05-27T07:35:00.003-04:00

this has been a crazy week, all 3 of the kids graduate this week. the daughter graduated from the career center on Tuesday and will graduate from high school on Sunday. Middle man graduated from elementary school yesterday and Little man graduated from preK. It has been a crazy whirl wind kinda week.. enjoy the pics!

Post rapture!

2011-05-22T09:17:00.002-04:00

So I made it... I'm still here.. Lots of graduation stuff to do this week. Hope you all have a great week.

Graduation

2011-05-20T06:40:00.002-04:00

well it's that time.... The daughter has 2 graduations one from her Home school and one from the career center, one on Tuesday and one on Sunday.... ( If the world doesn't end on Saturday) The middle man has graduation from 4th grade and little man graduates from pre K both on Thursday. I think it's a good thing I'm on vacation cause next week is going to be CRAZY! wish me luck!

The Daughter

2011-05-15T14:30:00.004-04:00

So last night was prom. Her last prom.. I am sad. She has grown up way to fast and I am not sure where the time went or how we gotto this point. She is an amazing young woman and I am so proud of her.

Prom

2011-05-13T20:44:00.002-04:00

Tomorrow is the daughters senior prom! Where have the last 12 yrs gone??? She graduates in 15 days. I can not believe that he school day s are almost over. I am sad but excited and so happy for her. Her life is just starting and I a so proud of her!!! Pics tomorrow!

Interview

2011-05-03T19:40:00.002-04:00

OMG!!! I had my interview today with the photo company out of Dayton!!! Can I just say PLEASE I WANT THIS JOB!!! My interview today started with coffee went to a lab tour and ended with lunch and the offer to audition for the job! 6 hrs later I am walking on cloud 9. wish me luck!

oh what a weekend

2011-05-01T07:51:00.002-04:00

Little man came for a visit this weekend, one of the 17 yr olds had prom, I worked saturday.... Think I'll run to the store and get stuff to make a big breakfast then take the kido's out and play in the rain! I'm still really excited for this interview on tuesday. I got my portfolio together last night and I forgot I actually take good pic. It's been awhile since I Have thought that but looking at my work last night was a good reminder that I am a good photographer! Hope you all have had a great weekend!

Life

2011-04-27T07:14:00.003-04:00

Helllooo I know I know it has been forever since I have been here... Well I have been here just not posting. I have been busy and lazy and had not much to write. I do have news that i wanted to share with someone and thought that maybe just maybe someone out there would be happy for me cause those here at home think I'm nuts! I have a job interview on Tuesday! Its for a major wedding photographer here in Ohio and he likes my work. I will get to do a few test shoots with him and then if we both like what we see I will have the job!!!! yeah OK it's crazy but it's what I want to do. I feel like I am dying in the current job and this would force me to shoot for real again! Here's the reason that people here think I'm crazy.... It's located 3 hours from my house. It would mean travel but hello I traveled before and for a lot less money so to me it's a no brainer. we shall see. keep your fingers toes and other body parts crossed i really want this job!

Snow .. snow.. snow..

2011-01-20T23:03:00.002-05:00

It is snowing here AGAIN! It seems like all it has done is snow lately. I know it's winter and it's suppose to snow but damn I am over it!
They have canceled school again it looks like the kids may go to school till the end of June. I am sooooo over the snow and am ready for the spring, then summer and wine on the porch in the swing with my cop!
I hope your all well and warm and doing what you love to do in this crazy weather!

December 1st???

2010-12-01T08:35:00.002-05:00

How did it become December already???? where has this year gone? I am looking forward to the holiday and the busy season at work to be behind me but I am also looking forward to the start of the new year. Not that 2010 was all bad but it did have it's ups and downs. I let go of a relationship that reached it's limits and in the process gained a new friend. On the down side my little man moved 2 hour away. I miss him everyday and love the time I do get to spend with him. I started dating a cop this year and that has been an amazing adventure. She has taught me so much about myself. I love finding things out about myself that I didn't know and with the cops help I am finding my footing and learning to stand strong. This year has been full of challenges and personal conflict and i am hoping the new year will be a great way to start fresh and work on myself and the things that I know need to change in my life. I will be back to blogging more regularly and Checking in more often, I have missed my blog.!

Middle man

2010-11-16T11:19:00.002-05:00

Well the middle man will be 11 tomorrow. I can't believe that he will be 11, where has the time gone. We are having a small family party tomorrow for him. He asked if I would take him and his bff to a movie and I of course said yes. they want to see a movie that isn't out yet so we will do it when it comes out. He is so cute he asked for a paper jam for his birthday and I had no idea what it was so I went to the toy section and found one. it's a small guitar like thing that plays music. I don't get it but it's what he wanted so i got it.
I miss my blog and all of you. I hope to get back to blogging regulary very soon. hope you all are well and looking forward to the holiday!

Nov already?

2010-11-04T21:55:00.002-04:00

Wow I have been gone forever! So much has changed and I will update soon. just wanted to let you all know ( if anyone is still out there reading) I'm doing great the kids are great and life is good!

YAY!

2010-07-31T16:12:00.001-04:00

The little man is coming today and staying until thursday! I can't wait to have all the kids in the house again! I miss him like crazy. It will be nice to have them all here and underfoot! pics to follow the visit!

summer time

2010-07-20T08:46:00.002-04:00

It seems like this summer is flying by way to quick. I have been super busy with work and a crazy schedule so I feel like I haven't seen the children nearly as much as I want too. I miss them and they are here. K started conditioning for cross country and it makes me want to cry. This is her 6th season, she is going to be a senior in high school and that makes me want to cry. I can not believe that my little girl is that old. it seems like yesterday she was born and in a month she starts her last year of high school. I am a mess just writing that, I can't imagine what it will be like when I say I'm sending her off to basic training. E is going to start 4th grade this year and is excited to be back in school. S maybe starting preschool in the fall if all goes well! My babies are growing up and I am not at all excited. but enough sad this weekend the cop and I are meeting up with Kristy and our friend Amy to go to the Zoo!!!! I will have all 3 of my kids together!!! I miss having S here all the time so what time I get with him is so special. I can't wait to see his face when he sees the polar bears. I love the zoo! have a great week !

updates

2010-07-16T23:26:00.002-04:00

I can not believe I haven't posted for a month. It has been crazy busy here and at work. The kids are having a great summer and I am hoping that we are able to do somethings before it gets away from us. WE are planning a trip to the zoo to see the new polar bear exhibit, and maybe a camping trip with my mom. It should be fun.
Life with the cop is never ever dull and we are getting along very very well. The kids adore her and she loves being around them (she spoils them rotten). I will tell you that I never thought I would date a cop and it has been quite the adjustment I don't like worrying every time she is on duty. It was getting better until she went back to the local sheriff department and they put her on the tactical team. Now I worry even more, I'm adjusting it's just hard every time she walks out the door I say a little prayer and I'm not a religious person. On another note I really like her family. Her mom took me to bingo and I even won a few games. I think that she is what I have always needed and just didn't know it. ( and yes Jude I like the other perks too:)!) I hope that I can get back to blogging soon it just seems like we never stop I have started biking and hope that someday I learn to like it as much as lifting weights. So I hope you are all enjoying your summer and the pride season.
I will return to blogging I just have to find time!

surgery today

2010-06-15T22:02:00.003-04:00

So today was the day I had surgery. I have had horrible periods for years ad that to being severely anemic and today the answer was to have a uterine ablation. The docs of should I say my insurance think this is a necessary step before a complete hysterectomy. I didn't care which procedure they chose just so it helps.
The cop went with me today and is taking such good care of me. I love my doc, she also takes good care of me. The surgery went very well and I have had no problems. I was given a nice local pain block in the area of my lady parts because I had a long ride home and that helped so much. The funniest part of the day was them asking me if I could be pregnant. I had a tubal almost 11 years ago and the last time I was near sperm was many many many years ago. I said I promise I am not pregnant and was told that if I had the parts I had to have the test, dumb but oh well.
So now I am home in bed nicely medicated so I if this rambles i apologizes. I hope you are all doing well and have a great great day!

still here just crazy!

2010-06-12T19:25:00.002-04:00

I haven't blogged in almost a month! I can't believe I have been away that long. I miss writing and I miss the interaction from my followers, but a new love life and crazy home life have both been in the way. so to recap the crazy here we go....
1 Kristy took S and moved out she has a new girlfriend and I wish them well. I just hope that she lets the kids and I see S.
2 K turned 17 on Friday and is still gungho on the air force as her job choice.
3 E is doing a summer program at school and is loving it.
4 The cop and I are doing great. She keeps telling me I don't know how to let her love me like I deserve to be loved. I think she is right in some ways, but I'm just not sure how to let her in. This feels like my first adult relationship and that is kind of scary for me. I told her I don't know how and her answer was just open your heart and let me in. She amazes me everyday and I know I am lucky to have her.
I am going to start blogging more I am I promise. so if anyone is still reading I have lots to blog about just hang in there I'll be back soon.

looking forward to the weekend!

2010-05-13T15:42:00.003-04:00

So I have been looking forward to this weekend for about a year now. One of my good friends is getting married. I am shooting the wedding. I haven't been in the mood to shoot for awhile but am really looking forward to shooting this one. She is a beautiful lady and I think it will be fun! Now for the weird lesbian wrinkle.... My new girlfriend is one of the brides mothers. Yep I have children in my life that range in age from 25 all the way to my 3 year old. It has been a weird transition to go from being Emmy's friend to dating her mother but it is all good. I told the cop I couldn't date her if Emmy didn't approve because Emmy is my hair stylist and we all know good stylists are hard to find. I am enjoying the kids they like the cop and we are all getting to know one another. She has been a great comfort over this last week, We had to put our little Oki down due to her seizures and the cop and her dog have been a big part in my recovery. I have had a big black lab wolf mix to cry to and he is such a comfort. so i know this is all over the place but I just wanted to check in. hope your all well.

update

2010-05-10T19:24:00.002-04:00

I know I haven been gone for a long long time, it seems weird to not blog like i use too. I have been busy with work, kids, life and a new romance. all but work are great. It seems like i haven't picked up my computer in ages. I miss the blog world and hope to get back to it very soon. I may not write much about the new girlfriend she is a cop and not all the comfortable with me blogging about her. I can say that I have never been happier. I love the feel of a new romance and all the warm fuzzy that come with it. wish me luck!

And the cop says...OH FUCK SHE HAS A BAT!

2010-04-24T09:32:00.002-04:00

So as i have said Kristy and I are not together anymore but we are still a family and that is going well. It's funny howw when you let go of something that isn't working all the good stuff that was working just gets better. anywho I got asked out by a local cop. I have known this lady for sometime and think she is a neat lady. I have talked with Kristy and the kids and they are all good with me going out with her. Now I'm not looking for a girlfriend any time soon but I do think it would be good to have someone to hang out with. That brings me to the title of this blog post. Kristy adn I took K to buy jewelry for prom the other day. On our way home K decided she wanted to mess with the cop. I texted her and told her that K wanted to talk to her. She gave us her location and asked if K was mad. I told her she would just have to wait and see. We pull up and Kristy looks at the cop and says "your in trouble" as k walks around the car with a baseball bat over her shoulder. K says to her "so I hear you want to date my mom". The cop looks at her and says "OH FUCK SHE HAS A BAT" To which Kristy K and I bust out laughing. She gave the cop her approval and we went home. It's kind of odd having the ex approve of and joke with the cop but I told the cop up front that Kristy is and always will be a big part of my life. She is family. she was good with that so it looks like i am going to date a cop. wish me luck!

NEW INK!!!!

2010-04-21T12:13:00.002-04:00

I went Monday and got some new ink! I am excited and will post pics as soon as it looks better. I got a white tree on my left forearm and it is soooo cool. Things are going well here. Kristy and I are doing very well as friends and I am so glad that we chose to end our romantic relationship while we still like each other. I still love her and hold a special place for her in my heart. It is good to know that we can still be a family and take care of our kids and not want to kill each other or have petty fights anymore. WE are both moving on with our lives but still holding to our family.This may sound odd but it is good to see her smile again and have it show in her eyes. The kids are well, K's first prom is this weekend we have a few more things to get then we will be done. E should start baseball soon and I'm excited! Kristy is going to help coach a little league softball team so I see lots of time at the park for us this spring!!! have a great week!

hmmmm

2010-04-13T14:56:00.002-04:00

Just wanted to check in and let everyone know how much I appreciate the good thoughts and vibes!!! I am doing well and am hanging in. Life is crazy as we get ready for the prom and all that is going on in the next few weeks. We signed E up for baseball last night and he is super excited. have a couple weddings to shoot soon and I hope they get me out of the funk I have been in with shooting, I haven't picked up a camera in weeks, and I miss it. I miss the creative outlet and need some form of motivation. Anyone need pics taken??? so hope your all well talk soon

Life happens

2010-04-07T22:56:00.003-04:00

I am going away for a bit not sure how long. There is a bunch going on at home and I am not ready to share. I will be back just not much to write about for now. I will keep up with everyone and may post off and on but for now I need to work on my family and me. happy spring all.

Hellooooo....

2010-03-25T23:29:00.003-04:00

I miss my blog, it seems like I have been neglecting it lately, I am still reading blogs and am here a couple time a week, I think it's just that life has been crazy. Work is hectic, home is crazy, and what free time I have I have been trying to spend with the wyfe. There is however a bunch going on so Lets do a run down list.....

1 The wyfe has decided that she is going back active duty as soon as she sews on Staff Sergent. Big changes to happen here at home with that choice that I am VERY VERY excited about.

2 My new boss came to see me the other day and hates me. I have been with this company for almost 10 years and have only been written up once and that was the month the wife visited from Japan and I was late A BUNCH!!! She came is and told me I wasn't doing anything right.... I am 132% to what company goals are and my labor and costs are well below what they should be but I don't know what I am doing.... I hate to say it but I feel it's a gay thing and that sux!

3 This one makes #2 better I am going back to school in the fall! I am taking a completely different career path but I told the wyfe that when she gets stationed I want to be able to pick up the paper and find a job, so I am going to do a Medical assistant program with an emphasis on billing and coding. This way I can find work just about anywhere.

4 The daughter is going to 3 yes I said 3 proms this year so I am going to be busy for several weekends. I am so excited! I may even get back in the mood to take some pictures!!!!

5 E made the a/b honor roll and we are proud!

OK so that is what has happened around here in a nutshell, I have been reading blogs if not commenting, I miss you all and hope your well.
Happy Spring!!!!

working weekend

2010-03-19T19:54:00.002-04:00

So I have to work all weekend, but tonight the wife and I are going to watch movies eat pizza and drink some beer. I hope that you all have a great weekend.

2 word tuesday!

2010-03-10T00:04:00.000-05:00

Prom Shopping!

2 word tuesday

2010-03-02T17:27:00.000-05:00

LOVING Pandora!!!!

weekend update

2010-03-01T20:12:00.005-05:00

So this weekend had it's ups and downs, mostly ups but one big down. we had decided we wanted a sphynx cat and thought that we had found a good breeder. Dawg came in for the weekend to help us pick out our cat and we drove half way across the state only to meet the crazy cat lady and her full grown ugly ass cats in her stinky house. Needless to say we didn't come home with a cat. I was disappointed but a little retail therapy made it all better. (I was told that shopping with a femme can be aggravating to some people.)
Saturday night we went to dinner with Dawg then we went out for drinks. I am told that not only did I dance with my favorite drag queen but apparently I danced with a very unattractive drag king. I don't remember the later so I am saying it never happened. I will leave you with a few picks of the weekend. Hope you all had a great one!!

Wyfes birthday weekend

2010-02-26T07:36:00.002-05:00

So the wyfe has a birthday this weekend. She keeps telling me she is skipping her birthday this year, but I can't let that happen. I just found out that a friend of ours is coming in for the weekend to help us pick out her birthday gift. I can tell you what it is because she already knows. We are adding a new cat to the family, a sphynx kitten. We have to go pick it out tomorrow and I am nervous that I don't know enough about the breed so it's great that R is coming with us( she has a sphynx). We are going to take the wyfe for dinner and drinks at her favorite restaurant. I will post pics of the night and the new kitty on Monday. hope you all have a great weekend!!!

2 Word tuesday!

2010-02-23T15:53:00.001-05:00

FUCKING OUCH!!!!!

2 Word tuesday!

2010-02-16T22:25:00.003-05:00

new hair!!!!

SNOW!

2010-02-15T20:08:00.003-05:00

The snow is still coming down and I am more than ready for it to stop. I like a bit of the white stuff but enough already! Wasn't somebody suppose to talk to the groundhog??? I am sooooo ready for spring! My kids have now missed the last 10 days of school and they are talking about extending the school day so that we may get out sometime in June. I am sooo ready for warmer longer days, for flowers and birds. I am just ready to get out of this house!! The wife and I are going to indy for the weekend to see friends of ours, that is IF this snow stops. lets hope it goes away sooon!

changes,reflections,date night

2010-02-13T09:14:00.003-05:00

So as you know I took a temp job at work and have had fun doing it, however this assignment is coming to and end and I am sort of sad that I will be going back in studio. I have been offered two other district managers jobs but they would both require me to move to Virginia and at this time I am not in a position nor do I want to move. So it's back to the studio for me. This is a good thing i wont be away from home and and I will get to spend more time with the kids and the wyfe. It also means that on the weekends she has reserve duty I don't have to worry about the kids being home alone, this makes us both more comfortable. I also will be able to get back to the gym on a regular basis. I have missed going to the gym. It is my time to reflect on me and concentrate on doing something good for me, and it just puts me in a good mood.

last night was date night, the wife and I went out for dinner and then to see Dear John. It was a good movie, they didn't butcher the book that bad at all. We also got new piercings last night, but I won't be sharing any pics ;)

have a great weekend and I hope you all have a lovely valentines day!!

2 Word tuesday!

2010-02-09T17:44:00.001-05:00

FU*&ING SNOW!!!!!

yummo!!!

2010-02-03T20:07:00.003-05:00

So today I took the day for myself, with the wyfes complete permission of course... I went and saw this hot blond dyke and let her put her hands alllll me. The wyfe even got me ready for her. She helped me shave my legs and get all soft and smooth. I had to drive a bit for her but it was sooooo worth it. She laid me all out and put her wonderful warm hands all over me for the entire morning and quite a bit of the afternoon. She has hands that just make me melt.I love the way she knows just what I need and where I need it. I turn into a puddle when she touches me. She worked me over and left me feeling warm and soft and completely relaxed. She even finished me off with the best chocolate I have ever had. I suggest if you have the chance you should alll take the time for a great massage. I feel like a new woman, and will have much more patience for awhile, that is until I need her again.

2 Word tuesday!

2010-02-02T19:04:00.000-05:00

JUST JUMP!

PINK enough said...

2010-02-01T15:36:00.003-05:00

Had to put this up for Dawg, she decided not to watch... wtf were you thinking..lol

Friends

2010-01-30T18:14:00.003-05:00

A bunch has happened lately around here and it is times likes this that I am so thankful for the group of woman that I have met here. Some of you I have gotten to actually meet, but most of you are still virtual friends. I have learned that face to face meetings aren't necessary for the bonds of friendship to be real and strong. I just want to say thanks for proving that.

2 Word tuesday!

2010-01-26T00:15:00.000-05:00

Moscato d Asti!!!!

Who let the Dawg in???

2010-01-24T17:39:00.009-05:00

ME ME I did!!!!

This weekend Dawg brought her family and came to visit mine. We had a full house with 8 humans and 5 furry kids,but we also had a blast.

Is this not the sweetest face you have ever seen? I would have kept this snuggle bug, but I couldn't get Dawg to part with her.
We spent a very relaxed weekend just hanging out and getting to know one another, and drinking wine lots of wine. I got to practice my mad cooking skills and dawg taught me how to make cornbread. I look forward to many more visits with this wonderful family.

*and just for the record there was no lightning this weekend !

visitors!!

2010-01-23T08:38:00.002-05:00

We are in the middle of a weekend visit with some great new friends. Pics and details will have to wait till Monday. IF I have recovered by then. until then have a great weekend!

2 Word tuesday!

2010-01-19T00:36:00.002-05:00

this sucks!

( Not life I just have a cold)

i think i'm in love!!

2010-01-17T16:57:00.004-05:00

This weekend the wyfe and I picked out our new couch, we decided to get a sectional. This thing is comfy and big and comfy and it hold my entire family in the one corner. The wyfe and I cuddled on the corner and had room for all 3 kids and the little dogs!! You know it's bad when you just want to go home and snuggle on the couch instead of shop. I don't even mind football since we are all snuggled up. Happy weekend everyone!

2 Word tuesday!

2010-01-12T00:18:00.003-05:00

Strong Enough!
(with music)

my family

2010-01-11T10:34:00.003-05:00

this is a re post of a video I did for equality Ohio. It was done to help educate the general public on LGBT issues. Hope you enjoy it

my kids look so little in this video!

long weekend

2010-01-10T19:08:00.002-05:00

This weekend the wife went for her first weekend of reserve duty. I am supportive of this and love being a military family. It's just that I never expected to miss her like this. We are good at the long distance thing. When we met she was 8000 miles away. I think it has to do with the trouble that we were having, Even though the bad stuff is behind us and we are doing great it was hard to say goodbye to her on Thursday knowing that I wouldn't see her till tonight. We have talked we have texted and we have flirted like crazy, it has been fun. I forgot what it was like to love someone over the phone and the computer. It has been fun and even if she was miles away I feel like we connected again. I told a friend of mine that I was glad that I missed her. It was nice to sit around in her sweatshirt that smelled like her and miss her. It's even nicer to know that she missed me and is now on her way home to me. I think I'm going to like this return to military life!

p.s. Thanks to all that thanked her for her service, it's nice to know that what she does is appreciated!!!

Crazy week !

2010-01-09T01:15:00.003-05:00

this has been a crazy week here at home. I started a new position at work. the wife and I took a road trip to buy a book. I traveled out of state for the new position at work, i will be doing this off and on. I got to travel in the yucky weather which was not so much fun. I spent to days with my regional director and he was much nicer this time. I got home this evening and the wife was in bed taking a nap to get ready for her big weekend adventure.... this is the weekend that she starts her Air Force Reserve duty. I am sooooo proud of her for the service that she does. I am so glad that she gets to do what she loves to do. I am however worried about her. She has to drive to Pittsburgh pa for reserve duty and the weather is crappy this weekend. (Mother Nature is a bitch sometimes) I know that this will be a busy weekend for her and i can only imagine this is going to have her really ready to go back to active duty asap! now lets just hope that Obama gets it done soon so she can live her dream!

2 Word tuesday!

2010-01-05T09:54:00.001-05:00

ROAD TRIP!!!

happy new year!

2010-01-01T19:05:00.002-05:00

I hope that this finds you all safe and well with a happy start to your new year. today has been a lazy day full of family fun and football games.
I have to go back to work tomorrow then I have 3 days off. It seems crazy to me to go back to work for a day, but oh well the things we do to pay the bills. I am looking forward to this next year and the changes that I see instore. I wish you all the best as we start this new year and hope that your first day of 2010 has been a great as mine.

2 Word tuesday!

2009-12-29T11:04:00.000-05:00

Lazy days!

New Year

2009-12-29T10:30:00.003-05:00

This time of year always makes me reflective. I try and decide what I would like the new year to be about and how to make it happen. this year I am so undecided on what I want to happen in my life. I have taken a temporary district managers position at work. It is for at least 10 weeks. It could be permanent if i want to move, but i don't' think I want to move i mean my house is payed for in less than 5 years. i also don't know if this is the best time for me to be traveling as much as the position requires. The wyfe just got into her clinical rotation with school and I would like to be home for her as much as possible. I know that school will require her to study much more from here on out and I want to be a good support system for her. i do know that this year I am going to let go of lots of things. I think that I have held on to things in my life that I have no control over. this is the time in my life that I need to let them go, i need to focus on making me happy so that positive energy and good things come into my life. I need to make myself a priority and not feel bad for doing so. I need to focus on my family and keep them safe and happy. I know that this will be a challenging year and I'm not sure how it will end or where i will be this time next year but I know that I will take the time that i need to focus on me.
I hope that you all get what you want from 2010. Be safe have fun and love and live well!

Merry Christmas!!!!

2009-12-24T23:30:00.002-05:00

Here is to wishing all of you a safe and happy holiday!!!
The picture is of the homemade gift the kids, wyfe and I made for all the grandparents. We call them Mistletoes. (those are the kids feet)
Hope santa is good to you and you get what you want. I have been given the best gift ever in my wyfe and family and all of you.
Happy Holidays!!!!

2 Word tuesday!

2009-12-22T08:38:00.000-05:00

POSITIVE ENERGY!!!!

Crazy week !

2009-12-21T08:07:00.002-05:00

this is going to be one of those weeks. I am so thankful that work has slowed down to a mere crawl, but because it has been so busy I am way behind on what I need to get done at home. I don't have a single present wrapped, my house needs to be cleaned, I need to do the grocery shopping and do laundry. I have to work today and tomorrow, then the wife has her little surgery on Wednesday. I am not sure when I will find the time to get everything done, but I will. I love/hate this time of year. I love that we get together with friends and family. I hate that it is so focused on what you get someone and how much money is spent. I would love to celebrate Christmas next year in July on a warm sandy beach. Anyone want to join us???

is this really still happening?

2009-12-17T00:35:00.003-05:00

As many of you know there has been a substantial amount of drama in my life as of late. In the last year I have come clean about an affair and I thought that we had put the entire thing behind us, this was only partly true, we still had somethings to talk through and in the last two weeks we have come to a new understanding and place in our relationship.I am confident that my marriage will be just fine and we will move on from here. my marital drama my be over but in it's place is now bloggy drama. I'm sure many of you are familiar with DawgDyke. She had an amazing blog that made me smile. She has quit blogging and I hope that someday she is able to start again, but that is not the point of this blog. I will say that away from blogland and twitter Renee has become my friend. When i thought my world was coming to an end she was there for me, she let me cry, she let me rant she just listened. As her readers know she too has had a fair amount of drama in her life as of late. I hope that I have been as helpful to her as she has been to me. with all that said we are just friends no more no less. I have no plans to be with her no thoughts that we should ever be together. I just don't see her like that. She is an amazing woman but we are way too much alike in so many ways that it would not even be possible. I am putting all of this out there because it has come to my attention that some of you are being told that Renee and I are interested in each other or even that we are an item. I think this is happening because when things end someone needs to be blamed. As I have said already I have had way to much of this High school type drama in my life I want it to end so that I can once again get the positive flow of energy in my life going. I will say physical violence is no way to end anything, people come and go from our lives all the time but violence should never be there. I think it is beyond time to act like the adults we are, if you have something to say to me all I can say is Bring It, I know where I stand and who has my back
Shelly

2 Word tuesday!

2009-12-15T21:25:00.001-05:00

DRAMA OVER........OK so i have to add a thank the goddess here!!!!

200th Post!

2009-12-15T08:01:00.002-05:00

Yep and I Had no idea it was coming. I have been crazy busy at work so a friends agreed to help me out with a guest post. I'm sure she will be making more appearances here so enjoy.
It's crazy. I can't sleep when I should be. So lets hope this post makes sense due to my lack of sleep.

Shelly is flipping the page to 200! She sure can bitch, moan, and of course gloat. I look forward to the next 200 blogs as I'm sure you (her readers) do too.

I've been asked to guest post. Thing is you won't know who I am. I live for mystery!
I'm young but wise. I'm charming with a splash of deadly. I'm butch yet still love a good pedicure. I'm a lesbian who LOVES women. Women are so unique, so intriguing, so much work! But the thing is ... women are highly manipulative. The way they walk, strut past you, and swing their hips. The way they smile, smirk, and lick their lips. The way they can change their voice from sweet, to seductive, to vengeful all in one conversation.

When you find the woman you can not live without it isn't always clear. Some days you need to be hit over the head with a frying pan to realize it. While other days you know just by seeing her smile.

If you have the woman you can not live without hold her tight. Kiss her forehead. Tell her you love her. She deserves it.

2 Word tuesday!

2009-12-08T09:20:00.002-05:00

THANK YOU.... we will now return to your regularly scheduled rantings.....

i stepped in it now!!!

2009-12-07T16:59:00.003-05:00

As I have blogged before, I cheated on the wife. It has been over a year ago, but things have once again come up. No I haven't cheated again. It seems that the wife has just yet to let it go. I thought that things were going smooth and that we were back on track. We had talked in depth about her rejoining then military as soon as don't ask don't tell goes away, we had made other long term plans. It now comes out that she is not sure she wants to be here anymore. I am not sure how to handle this or what to do I want this to work, but not sure where to go or how to fix it, or if it can be fixed. I guess that it's up to her. so i just have to wait and see.

SNOW!

2009-12-05T09:30:00.004-05:00

the first snow of the year is falling as I type. This is not making me anymore festive. I am just annoyed that I have to clean off my car. I guess I should have parked in the garage. The wife and kids are going to a jingle bell parade this morning, then ice skating. i am not really to upset that I have to work, I don't want to play in the snow, I don't like the cold. I know I sound like a scrooge but work kills the holiday spirit. I have Tuesday off then i work until the 23rd. the silver lining is I get the week between Christmas and new years off!!!
I hope if you are getting the snow that you are able to have some fun in it or in front of a fire with the one you love.
Happy Saturday!

friends

2009-12-01T21:54:00.003-05:00

this has been the craziest week, with work and work and more work, but I have managed to squeeze in two yep two blogger buddy meet and greets. last week as the pictures show the wife and I met propane Amy. Ames or as S renamed her Wank came and spent the night with us. If you haven't had the pleasure of meeting this crazy wonderful lady you really must. She was the same as she is on the blog and just as lovable. We had a great great time with her. Today we got together with Amy for lunch and she brought Kim. We had a ball with them and I can't wait to get together with Kim again soon. we live closer together than I thought we did. This is a good thing!!! this was just what I needed to help me recharge for the rest of the busy season!

to the family

2009-11-22T20:45:00.003-05:00

to the family.....
I know that I have been home very little this week and it won't get any better until Christmas eve. I just wanted you to know that without the way you all step up and help this time of year I would be lost. Thanks to the wife for letting me do this crazy job that I love/hate. You are the best, I promise after all this is over I will cook again.

On a side note I am looking forward to this week I only have to work 54 or so hours and Propane Amy is coming to visit!!!!!

LEGO Party!!!

2009-11-17T22:03:00.005-05:00

ok so I thought I posted this last night, oooops, better late than never!
The party is over! It was great, only 3 of e's friends made it to the party but we had a great time. My mom and my Bob made it, my ex inlaws, our friend t and K's boyfriend all showed up so we had plenty of people here. E's bff came home with him from school on the bus. i think it's cute because his bff is a girl. She played lego's with the boys, and did better than I would have. I still cant't believe my middle man is 10.

E turns 10!

2009-11-16T20:30:00.003-05:00

I can not believe that my middle man turns 10 tomorrow. I am setting here looking at him and it makes me sad, well not sad but defiantly something. He is such a good kid and I am a better mom because of him. Tomorrow we are having a lego party with 7 kids and a bunch of adults. wish me luck!

mama's night out

2009-11-08T22:07:00.003-05:00

So the wife and I went out this weekend. We don't get to do this very often. It was a friend of ours 40Th birthday and our favorite band was playing. We drove 150 mile just to go to a birthday party, but I would do it again in a heart beat. It was just what I needed to get me recharged for this busy time at work. Here are just a couple of pics of the night.the band is JustUs out of middle town ohio. the blond in the do-rag is the birthday girl and the other is just us.

Work is crazy as it always is this time of year. I have a meeting with my district manager and my regional director this week. nothing big just going over some stuff. I am ready for the week so bring it on!

ummm where did the last 2 weeks go

2009-10-31T19:17:00.005-04:00

OMG the last 2 weeks of October are gone.where did they go???
it's been crazy here at home and at work, i haven't blogged in 2 weeks and haven't read many either, I hope to have time to catch up soon. here are the high points of the last 2 weeks

* I hired a new girl at work to replace the scabies girl!!!
* since new hire I have worked 50 + hours a week!! love the ot
* the daughter had a run in with the ex bf so I spent a day with principals
* daughters ex now has to be nice!!!!
* E was citizen of the month for October.
* E won a coloring contest at school for red ribbon week, don't do drugs be a hairdresser was his poster!! ( yeah a hairdresser)
* Trick or treat was a great success!
It's been crazy and will only get crazier at work, I work like a dog for 6 weeks out of the year, I can't complain. I hope you all are well and I will catch up soon.

oh what a birthday!!!

2009-10-18T21:47:00.002-04:00

So I turned 35 yesterday,the wife took me to the zoo. We went with our whole family, the wife's mom,step dad,sister brother in law and their 2 kids and some other kid. My mom and my bob went too. The kids all dressed in Halloween costumes and we had a great day. I told myself that I would enjoy the day no mater what, an I did. I didn't let the in laws get to me and enjoyed the day. My wife woke me up with singing and kisses, the kids behaved so well all day. we rode rides, saw animals and had a great great day. I think one of my favorite moments was riding the scrambler with my mom, she belly laughed the whole time. I think this year is going to be more about family for me. I want to spend as much time as I can doing things that the kids will remember for the rest of their lives. We only have about 18 months before K graduates from high school, then she will be joining the Air Force and starting her own adventures. Thanks to everyone who has wished me a happy birthday, it means so much.

My daughter

2009-10-14T22:17:00.003-04:00

My daughter is 16, she is a junior in high school and she is the typical teenage girl. She tries my patience, she aggravates me to tears and she worries me. She also fills me with pride, makes my heart swell with love, and she amazes me everyday. I was 18 when i had my daughter, I believe that everything that life hands us is for a reason.I say this because I know had I not gotten pregnant with her I would not have the life that I have now. I know that I would have moved away from my small home town and then I wouldn't have E, S or the wife. My daughter may not have been in my plans, but I thank the goddess each and everyday for the unexpected joy that she has been. She is growing up way way to fast. Tonight she competed in her conference championship run for cross country. She placed 23 out of 112 girls. she didn't quite make the time she wanted but it was freezing cold and she did very well. (she missed her time by 12 seconds)I watch her everyday and wonder what she will grow to be. she dreams of going to the Air Force like her mama, She wants to be a police dog handler. I have told her she can be what ever she wants to be I will love her no matter what. I am adopted so when she was born I remember thinking this is the first person that I have ever been connected to, my blood runs in her veins I will protect her. It seems like that was just yesterday.I can't wait to see what she will make of herself. She has already made me so proud.

they will melt your heart

2009-10-12T22:47:00.003-04:00

Could you not just eat them up with a spoon! This was on Sunday while I was at work, s grabbed E yelled cheese. The wife was quick enough to get the camera and get this great shot. They make me laugh they make me smile and they drive me crazy but look at them.

the oath

2009-10-10T22:02:00.006-04:00

Today was a long long day, the wife and I took the kids to "the skull session" at the Ohio state game.(skull session is a way to make pep rally sound more butch). Today was the day that the wife took her oath of enlistment for the Air Force Reserves. I was an emotional mess as she took the oath, I have never been more proud of her. It was hard for me to sit there and watch her as just her friend. It was hard for me to not throw my arms around her when she came off the floor. I am so proud that she wants to do this and I will standby her. I know that she feels this is what she should be doing and I respect that it's just hard for me to understand how she can do this when they would throw her out for just being herself. on that note I should say the wife was in a tshirt with her double Venus symbol tat shining on the back of her neck and her rainbow star showing on her wrist.
It was refreshing to hear Obama say that DADT should go away tonight and I hope it does very very soon. I know that is will be hard to keep my hands off once she is in the new camies!!!!

chix 4 a cure.

2009-10-03T20:02:00.003-04:00

Today the wife kids and I went to a breast cancer benefit. k ran the 5K and won in her age division. It was nice to see my little community get behind one of their own. There were about 500 people that came out for the run/walk. There were people that came in from all over the country to participate and get behind the survivor. It was a beautiful day and the daughter did us proud. I wish that we had known about this sooner and then the wife and I would have participated. I want to take the daughter and do the Susan g Komen run in may. It's what I'm training for now, and it will get one of the things on my bucket list accomplished. all in all it was a great day and something very worth getting behind!

I think I need to dyke it up some!

2009-09-28T21:22:00.003-04:00

The wife called me at work today to inform me that I am no longer allowed to freak out over spiders. Apparently S freaked out today because there was a spider near him. He came running in the room screaming ewww ewww, bug,get it, spider, spider, kill it. Yeah that's me Spiders turn me into a big ole blubbering baby. I hate them, they have to many legs and they are just creepy looking. I guess that I will have to dyke it up and try..... Like that's going to happen.

daughter

2009-09-26T22:23:00.003-04:00

As you all know I have a 16yr old daughter. She was in a very bad high school relationship that thankfully ended this summer. She then started dating a guy that was very sweet and treated her well. here's the problem this boy reminds me of the way my ex husband was back in high school. this boy was polite and kind and had absolutely no desire to do anything ambitious with his life. This may sound wrong and I hope it doesn't come out mean but he is just so not what I want for my daughter. Well she broke up with him on Thursday and this kid is still coming over and calling and begging her for another chance. He told me tonight that his life is over so he is going to join the Marine Corp and die before he is 30. I thought we dykes had drama, it seems like nothing compared to the high school drama at my house. Any who the daughter has decided that she is going to be single until she gets through basic training in 2 years. If i can get that lucky i will thank the goddess. On a happy note she ran today in the pouring down rain and had a great finish and put up a great time for the weather. there is no way i would have been able to run 3.2 miles in the mud and rain. We are very proud of her everytime she crosses the finish line!!!!

FML update

2009-09-23T18:08:00.004-04:00

I am on vacation this week and haven't heard anything from work, well from the boss anyway. My girls call me everyday. I have decided that I am going to take everyones advice and get my ducks in a row and get ready to go back to school!

FML

2009-09-21T13:10:00.003-04:00

I have worked for the same company for the last 10 years, I have worked in several different positions for this company, I have made them lots of money, and now I am pretty sure that I am going to be fired. At closing the other night a woman reached into my cash drawer and stole $ 40. I have the bitch on tape and I have her name and cell number. I followed all the procedures that the company says to follow now it's Monday and it looks like my regional is saying it was gross neglect on my part. So as I sit writing this I am faced with what to do? do I try and fight for a job I am very good at but also very tired of. Do I let them fire me and move on. I have been wanting to go back to school for sometime and just haven't taken the step. I can go to school tuition free. I have applied for finical aid and have been offered more than enough to make ends meet. I am just frustrated and angry and confused. I know that if I lose my job i will be forced to push my side business harder. I just feel like I am drifting and don't know where to go or what to do. I am trying to look at this as a sign that it's time for change but who knows. I do know that I am going to be OK my kids are safe and loved we have a home and food and I know that all will work out in the end. thanks for listening.

Fall

2009-09-14T21:30:00.003-04:00

It is starting to get cool here in Ohio, I love this time of year. I love the cool evenings and the leaves as they start to change. I love the first fires in the fire place, just to keep the chill out. I love raking a big pile of leaves and jumping in with the kids. I love love love Halloween and the harvest moon. I love everything about this time of year. My birthday is coming and I will be 35 this year. It was about this time 6 years ago that I decided to officially end my marriage(which had been over for years) and live my life as I should. I met my wife not long after and came screaming out of the closet. As I get ready to celebrate this year it is really a celebration of many things. My coming out, my birthday, my family and this year. this year I feel like I have really grown into the person that I can be. I know that I will grow and change more but this year I have become so in tune with who I am and what I want that I am glad it's a milestone birthday. I want to celebrate and be happy, I am at peace with myself and I think that has a lot to do with this wonderful community that I have found.the support and understanding that I get is amazing. so as I get ready to celebrate all that is good and right with my life I want to say thank you to you all for all that you do.
Shelly

loving my baby

2009-09-11T00:58:00.005-04:00

I wrote an article for the gay news here locally about butch/femme relationships. Now at our house we don't have roles that we play but we are the typical looking butch/femme couple. I have said it here before and I will say it over and over I love butch women. So I will leave you with one of my favorite quotes.
I love butch girls. Girls with slick, shiny, barbershop haircuts, trimmed so short your fingertips can barely grip it. Girls with shirts that button the other way. Girls that swagger... Girls who get stared at in the ladies' room, girls who shop in the boys department, girls who live every moment looking like they weren't supposed to. Girls with hands that touch me like they have been exploring my body their entire lives... It is the girls that get called sir every day who make me catch my breath, the girls with strong jaws who buckle my knees, the girls who are a different gender who make me want to lay down for them. - Tristan Taormino

my baby back in the day

2009-09-08T16:48:00.002-04:00

So this is how my baby rolled back in the day. ( she is so going to kill me) hahaha

this is how we roll

2009-09-03T18:45:00.004-04:00

so this is how we spend a quiet night at home all of us on the couch with a netfix movie going on both computers. tonights feature Mrs doubtfire. on Sunday we watched Clash of the titans. hope you all are having a relaxing evening.

Oh and K went to run for cross country practice and fell down a hill so I spent the evening in the ER she has a sprained knee and ankle and is on crutches for a week. she is also quite pissy because they told her no running, oh well such is life.

ohhh what a weekend

2009-08-30T20:30:00.006-04:00

The wife and I went out for the weekend to a women's music festival. It was one of the coolest weekends we have had for awhile. We heard lots of great bands, I had my first ever jello shot and we made new friends. Oh and we networked a bunch for work.
I also drunk dialed propane amy the first night and got drunk dialed by Dawg the second.We had lots and lots of fun.I needed this weekend after all the we have been going through with the kids and their situation. It was nice to get away and recharge the batteries. I am now ready for many more weekends full of cross country meets and parent stuff. I will leave you with some pics. (many more to come)The festival this weekend was in a club that use to be a bank. I have never been to a club where you walk through the vault just to find the potty. The wife had to ham it up a bit. The lovely lady in the purple bandanna was our host for the the weekend. As you can see she had her arms full.

This is the band Odd Girl Out from the Baltimore area,they rock. I developed quite a crush on the lead guitar player Selena.

This picture is for nannykaitlinn. girl if you figure out what this stands for I'll give you a dollar!

Amy tagged me...

2009-08-25T21:49:00.003-04:00

So my buttercup amy @ propaneamy has tagged me, lets see if I can do this.

How it works... fill in your own answers and then pass it on to four bloggers of your choice.

1. Who is the hottest Movie Star?
Angelina no doubt

2. Apart from your house and car, what is the most expensive item you have ever bought?
hmmm camera's and the one I want costs more than my last car... It will have to wait.

3. What is your most treasured memory?
This will be tuff, but it would have to be from when I was little and my mom took my cousin and I on a hike in the woods. we got lost but I knew it was ok because my mom was there. we got home about 4 hours after we left. it was great

4. What was the best gift you ever received as a child?
My first camera. It helped me see the world in a whole new way.

5. What is the biggest mistake you have ever made?
I don't make mistakes... they are all life lessons that have gotten me where I am today.

6. 4 words to describe yourself?
outgoing,creative,unpredictable,arachnophob

7. What was your highlight or low light of 2009?
Low Light: can't think of one it was a good year

High Light: getting the house sided it was a work in progress for far to long

8. Favorite Film?
what dreams may come, and don't laugh A knights tale is my all time fave.

9. Tell me one thing I don’t know about you.
I am a list everything requires a list.

10. If you were a comic book/strip or cartoon character, who would you be?
shhh don't tell but I am Wonder woman!!!

So I tag

Dawg & miss Hottie

Dragon

That makes 4 since I added hottie with Dawg! lol

just a friendly reminder.

2009-08-23T21:23:00.003-04:00

So today I had to fill out paperwork for the Air Force. It was paper work saying that I would be responsible for S if something happens and the wife is deployed or detained for a long period of time. Now I understand that this is a safe guard for the unmarried solider and the child in question. However it just makes me mad that the wife and I consider ourselves married we consider S to be our but we are not, and he isn't mine. It makes me a bit sad to have to sign a paper that say I will care for my son until permanent custody can be established. I know that this is not anything that the wife has asked for. It is just one more way we are reminded that we are not treated equal. I do know that I am still super proud of the wife. I don't know if I would be able to serve in an organization that didn't like me for who I am. I do know that I will support her because this is what she wants to do. It was what she would still be doing if she hadn't gotten pregnant with S. It is who she is and it is the person I fell in love with. Besides she looks great in cammies.

chasing rainbows

2009-08-21T21:47:00.003-04:00

So this has been a crazy week here at home. We started the week off with a long talk to the kids father and both kids telling him they don't want to be there. It has gone well and both kids are much more relaxed this week. Wednesday the wife saw the recruiter and enlisted in the Air Force reserves. She is officially sworn in on October 10th. So we are once again an Air Force family. I am excited and scared and proud all at once. The kids start school next week and then the chaos really begins.
We had a great storm last night and when it was over we went looking for stuff to photograph. We found lots of clouds and then we saw it. a perfect double rainbow. this made me think of the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. I have found my gold in this wonderful group of ladies that are refocksa. Even though this week was crazy I knew that at the end of the day there would be someone who understands what's going on. Someone to listen and someone with kind words of encouragement. So to you all I say thank you for being my pot of gold.

Honest Scrap

2009-08-21T20:09:00.003-04:00

Dawg awarded me with this Honest Scrap Award.

There are three rules for this award:
First, link back to the person who gave you the award (see above)
Next, give the award to 10 other bloggers.

1 Propaneamy Any one who wears a human condom is ok with me! no seriously love ya Ames

2 Jude at 7sences I want to shoot like she does!

3 Lilliegirl: She has more Patience than 10of me.

4 unlawfully wedded wife. She was one of my first blogger buddies!

5 KimberP at I know right. she is a fellow buckeye and has a heart of gold

6 Tina from tina-cious.com she is a fellow feisty femme

7 holden from packing vocals. for helping me understand the wife a little more.

8 Solo at Solohomo. She makes great vids!!

9 ok so I was going to tag dragon and rocket but they got tagged.

Second part of this is to tell 10 things about me

1 I love to read and can burn through books like they are water.

2 I use to work as a phlebotomist and now the thought of needles makes me feel yucky

3 I have given up on trying to look the part of a lesbian. I am what I am no matter how I look.

4 My wife is very excited about #3,but she did have fun laughing at me for trying to look butch.

5 I love to shoot pictures and don't ever leave home without a camera or two.

6 I have more shoes than I will ever wear and I know it. ( don't tell the wife I know)

7 I love hockey GO BLUE JACKETS!

8 I want to run my first 5k this year.

9 I love eminem thanks to the wife.

10 I use to be a beauty queen. NO COMMENTS!

ok So my links aren't working. who knows.

kido update

2009-08-16T23:35:00.002-04:00

So we saw the father today and the kids stood thier ground. told him that they didn't want to be at his house. they both told him that they want to see him but not at his house. My nine year old looked his father dead in the eye and told him he didn't want to come back to his house ever. I know that it is what they say they want, but it breaks my heart to know that they are this frustrated. we came home and thier father had called and left them a message telling them how much he loved them and missed them. Now mind you I can count on one hand how many times he has called them in the last year. All I can do now is let thme know how loved they are here. We have one week before school starts and I have one more fun outing planned for them. So keep your fingers crossed for us all that this continues to be ok.

welcome to the family Buster

2009-08-12T21:47:00.004-04:00

As promised pics of our newest family member. May I introduce Buster Brown. No we had no plans for a new puppy but you know how it is when you fall in love. The kids love him and as you can tell he feels right at home. As I blog this E is now laying down and Buster is laying across him. E said he thinks he found his buddy. The weimaraner loves him, thinks he's a new toy. Now if princess Oki our wiener dog would just decide to like him all would be well.

Troubled children

2009-08-12T00:25:00.003-04:00

I know that I have talked about my oldest 2 kids not liking to be with their father before and I have at times thought that it would be better for our family if they didn't have to go so much, but then I also want them to have a relationship with him, so it has been kind of a catch 22. He use to be a great dad, then we split and he is one of those men that cant be alone and has made some choices that may be good for him but not so good for the kids. He has remarried and now has a step son that is 2 yrs younger than E. From what the kids say this boy has major behavior issues and is the major reason they don't like going to their dads. I have always just let them rant and reassured them that we love them. Well this weekend they came home from a week long stay with dad, and K told us that this boy touches himself in front of them ALL the time. They have told their father and he tells them to ignore him. Now I know that little boys get fascinated with their boy parts, and we have always told E that this is normal and if he need or wants to touch himself it's a private thing not to be done in front of others. I guess K has even looked up to see this boy touching himself and while staring at her and smiling. To write this gives me the creeps. Anyway, I am deeply troubled by this and the kids say it's so bad they don't want to be around him. I know if I say anything to the ex or the new wife they will blow it off and blame my kids. I have talked to a few people I know in the system and have found out that there is really nothing I can do legally because they haven't been physically harmed. It sucks to think that I am going to have to fight to keep them away from this. I have searched my mommy handbook and can't find this chapter anywhere. I am open to suggestions.

crazy monday

2009-08-10T21:07:00.002-04:00

So today was a long ass day with conference calls on both ends of it but then I got to come home to a great sunset after a great storm!It made the yucky day better that's for sure.

family pics

2009-08-09T22:19:00.005-04:00

So no this is not my family but it is a picture that I took of one of the nicest families that I know. I have taken pics of the little boy since he was born. Actually I have taken pics for this family since before there were kids in the family. They are one of the nicest families that I have ever worked with. They are so special to me that I rushed to the studio to take the little guys Christmas pics just and hour after our insemination for S. They were also the first of my clients that I came out to. I guess that is why they are so special. I got a hug and was told they hoped I was happy. They always ask about the wife and kids and are just great great people to be around. I just wanted to share this beautiful family.

I made it!

2009-08-06T20:53:00.002-04:00

So today at work I had visitors. My district manager and my regional manager came to spend the day. I love my dm she is a great lady and an awesome photographer. My rm is a very professional man who doesn't even own a digital camera. So my dm was at work when I got there and we talked over coffee. The big guy got there about an hour later. He proceeded to tell me that I need to be better at the paperwork aspect of my job. I should say, I already know this. I am all about the creative part of my job. I think that getting that perfect smile from the little ones is what it's all about. I get the paperwork done but maybe not with all the i's dotted and the t's crossed just right. I do however make a tidy profit for my company. So the day wasn't as bad as it could have been, I am still employed and that is good since I have a wife and kids to feed. I am now sitting here drinking a bloody Mary and watching myth busters with the wife. I love the decompressing part of a stressful day!!!!

weekend update

2009-08-02T22:10:00.005-04:00

So I got to keep the kids an extra 12 hours today which was a great surprise. I love when that happens, so do they. I guess that their father had to work his in laws french fry stand today so he couldn't come get them this morning, ohh darn. So the wife and I had the chance to fix a lazy breakfast for them and we re-watched the movie Coraline. It was great,and even if you don't have kids I recommend it. I however love Tim Burton so I may be biased. The two older kids could both sing every song to the Nightmare before Christmas by the time they were 3.

Later in the day we went and took baby bump pictures for a friend of ours and I got my hair cut, and I love it. I have been struggling with letting it grow out some. I will never have long hair again but I had been keepingit cut pretty short and spiky so I think I want something a little longer, maybe a chin length bob, maybe not. then the wife and I decided to be handy and fix our roof. we Had a spot that needed a couple of shingles replaced so we did that this evening while the kids played in the yard. All I really did was sit there and offer moral support and as you can see from the picture( a very bad fuzzy picture) we had a little wiener help. then it was off to take the kids to their dad. so the wife S and I are home now trying to watch a movie. The movie push is not keeping my attention. We have stopped it for ice cream sundaes, slugs on the porch and laundry. I think maybe we should watch Coraline again. I am looking forward to the next couple weeks, then the kids go back to school and the crazy time starts.

My wife,changes might be on the way

2009-08-01T19:07:00.003-04:00

I'm not sure what all I have shared about the wife other than that she is the love of my life and sexy as hell. She is also ex-military. She was in the Air force when we met and only got out when we got pregnant for our son. She misses the Air force, I know that she does. We have always talked about her going back if don't ask don't tell went away. well today she decided that the air force reserve might be the way to go. She is going to talk to the recruiter next week and see what they have to offer her. I am excited and worried and excited for her. I know that this would mean big changes for our family and as much as I don't want to have her in the closet I know that she will only be doing this on a part time basis so I can live with it. This is away for her to further her education and when don't ask don't tell goes away we can be the military family that we should have been all along. So keep us in your thoughts, big changes might happen soon